~TJTJ~

2012-01-04T00:23:00.002+08:00

Today was first working day of the year. It feels like my first day of work. Everything's the same, just that today was kinda busier than usual.

2011 past by just like that. Other than increased savings, I guess I spent much on hanging out during weekends, and spending quite a fair bit on food, travel etc.

Last year was like a transition period. I think I'm used to lazing through a typical night, starting at the monitor, and I even reminded myself I had to start on the reading. In short. I have almost zero discipline.

My 2011 resolutions= epic fail. I guess some of the highlights include Taiwan trip, and friends being there for me when I need a listening ear. I always believe not in the quantity, but rather the quality, friends you know that are just a phone call away..

I guess the first part of 2011 was meeting you, and all these would not have happened if not for certain reasons. That's why life's so amazing. Some people just appear in your life.

I don't know since when I was attracted to you, but I guess the main thing's I'm comfortable being around with you, and the way you laugh just captivates me.. but like most guys, I like to act cool, and play bastard at times which is stupid cause I'm just screwing myself in the end.

Gosh, I don't even know what i'm typing now.

Anyway, this year gonnabe busy once sch starts. I really hope I can get into the degree of my choice, but by the looks of it, It's tough. Still, nothing is impossible..

Manchester here I come!!

It's like 3600 seconds faster and I wish I'm right besides you at this particular moment.

2011-11-15T23:47:00.001+08:00

那些年

曲：木村充利词：九把刀

演唱：胡夏

又回到最初的起点

记忆中你青涩的脸

我们终於来到了这一天

桌垫下的老照片

无数回忆连结

今天男孩要赴女孩最后的约

又回到最初的起点

呆呆地站在镜子前

笨拙系上红色领带的结

将头发梳成大人模样

穿上一身帅气西装

等会儿见你一定比想像美

好想再回到那些年的时光

回到教室座位前后故意讨你温柔的骂

黑板上排列组合你舍得解开吗

谁与谁坐他又爱著她

那些年错过的大雨

那些年错过的爱情

好想拥抱你拥抱错过的勇气

曾经想征服全世界

到最后回首才发现

这世界滴滴点点全部都是你

那些年错过的大雨

那些年错过的爱情

好想告诉你告诉你我没有忘记

那天晚上满天星星

平行时空下的约定

再一次相遇我会紧紧抱著你

紧紧抱著你

又回到最初的起点

呆呆地站在镜子前

笨拙系上红色领带的结

将头发梳成大人模样

穿上一身帅气西装

等会儿见你一定比想像美

好想再回到那些年的时光

回到教室座位前后故意讨你温柔的骂

黑板上排列组合你舍得解开吗

谁与谁坐他又爱著她

那些年错过的大雨

那些年错过的爱情

好想拥抱你拥抱错过的勇气

曾经想征服全世界

到最后回首才发现

这世界滴滴点点全部都是你

那些年错过的大雨

那些年错过的爱情

好想告诉你告诉你我没有忘记

那天晚上满天星星

平行时空下的约定

再一次相遇我会紧紧抱著你

紧紧抱著你

那些年错过的大雨

那些年错过的爱情

好想拥抱你拥抱错过的勇气

曾经想征服全世界

到最后回首才发现

这世界滴滴点点全部都是你

那些年错过的大雨

那些年错过的爱情

好想告诉你告诉你我没有忘记

那天晚上满天星星

平行时空下的约定

再一次相遇我会紧紧抱著你

紧紧抱著你

2011-11-14T00:17:00.003+08:00

I just watched, in my opinion the best movie thus far, You are the apple of my eye.

那些年，我們一起追的女孩

Plot was good, romance with humour. Like any love story, there has to be the inevitable breakup with a twist to the ending.

The theme song of the movie is on rewind. Somehow, the lyrics stirred up lot of emotions within me.

Typical crush ( Love at first sight)
Courtship

When it comes to the final hurdle, I failed myself.

Held back confession and the chance was lost.

Two years on, I have not recover.

All of us have our own apple of the eye.

In a basket full of apples, one hesitation and the next moment, the apple you wanted could be gone.

Damn this emo feeling!

2011-10-27T00:23:00.002+08:00

Today was prob the worst day of my life.

I need to screw some common sense in my fucking brain, at least I think I resolve matters finally, i hope.

there's work tomorrow.

2011-10-04T23:08:00.002+08:00

People usually do things with a motive. the motive might not be a bad one, but it's still an outcome which they desire.

I wish I could be more rational at times, but I guess kind of screed it up this time round

Anyway, what's done is done. suck thumb and move on. just like how you wish some things never happen in your life.

Life's like a see saw, and I'm right in the thick of the action.

I've figured out something though, I need to spare a thought for myself.

2011-10-02T11:28:00.002+08:00

Oct. Soon one year will pass by just like this.

I'm supposed to start school next year, but then I have my hesitations, cause I' gotta find a balance between work and school, and that means burnt-out weekends. I've been so, so long ago since I hit the books. I don't know if I can make it.

In life, we made our choices, once made, it's considered done, just like, once broken, considered sold.

I've been listening to emo-ish songs nowadays, and I don't know why too. It's just seem to stir up strong emotions within me.

Alright, some good news. grandma was discharged from hospital yesterday. it's amazing how things can change so much in a mere week. I'm guilty cause I haven't visit my grandma yet.

Things get tough when you let your heart rule over your mind, but i'll learn, i guess.

Taiwan trip couldn't come at a better timing.

will be back, with a happier post.

2011-09-29T23:34:00.003+08:00

I think you are cute and I've fallen for you.

2011-09-28T23:50:00.002+08:00

I got a couple of important things done this week.

I signed and confirm my insurance. It's not all that good of course, but at least, I know if I won't live to see tomorrow, then at least there's something left for my family.

I've decided to go check on my heart murmur, to ensure everything alright.

Travel insurance's done as well.

somehow, I think i've been having myself unnecessary stress at times.

I gotta learn to take it easy. Life's isn's life with all the ups and downs.

2011-09-24T10:17:00.002+08:00

So i learnt another thing today.

Never book appointment in the morning.

I think I sounded as if I just woke up, and the NUH lady didn't get what i'm trying to say.

Oh well, at least I know that I have been discharged by them.

Today's going be a busy day.

2011-09-24T08:51:00.002+08:00

I just woke up, and my mum told me my grandma is diagnosed with Rheumatic Heart Disease.

I just goggled it up, and realised that the diseases is cause by a series of rheumatic fevers that were not treated, resulting in inflammation in heart which eventually spread to other parts of the body.

The doctor said if the artery is still blocked by tomorrow, then my grandma will have to undergo operation on Monday.

I just hope things will turn out fine.

Then again, I should really go follow up on the murmur in my heart, just to ensure everything is alright.

I hope this weekends gets better from now onwards.

2011-09-20T23:30:00.002+08:00

The feeling I got more than four years ago is back, or at least, I feel it's back.

Evidence as follows:

Checking phone every 5 minutes, hoping it's her.

Getting all hyped up the day before meeting her.

Enthu when on the phone with her

Maybe it's cause it just the beginning, and it'll just fizzle out soon.

I shall take things slow.

Today aint a good day.

Train dispute, feeling dead tired at work, sounded like an idiot on the phone.. Train-ing home on a empty stomach, and the worst of the lot, mum told me ah ma has been admitted to hospital.

You now when you are old and sick, you don't want to stay at a hospital, you want to go home.

For me, i don't like going home, I like to stay out, but maybe a couple of years down the road, things will be different.

I cross my fingers and pray that everything will be fine.

2011-09-07T00:07:00.003+08:00

Something major just gotta happen every single month.

It's time for me to be the bad guy, to show you how it should be done, and yes, the truth often hurts, but it's for your own good.

Twin-ny not around to help me also. I'm alone fighting a losing battle. My parents are either acting ignorant or just plain ignorant. Oh well, it doesn't make a difference.

Time for me to burst the bubble.

When you alone, you got to stand up and make yourself count!

Goodnight world.

2011-09-06T00:27:00.002+08:00

I don't get some people. Love is not just about getting the girl of your dreams, It's about the process of being together through all the tears and joy, up & down, thick and thin.

It's only through all these, that makes you realise if you are indeed meant for each other. It's doesn't matter if it's Love at first sight, or realising that you have fallen in love with a friend you know for donkey years, it's about the process, creating a story together. The ending is unpredictable, just as life is.

but like they say, what kills you makes you stronger, better and wiser.

So grow up people, stop being a douchebag by putting what "blah blah " changed his relationship status from "single" to" in a relationship", and thne post like free who the whole world to see how happy you are

Then when things start to turn ugly and eventually ended on a sour note, all the curses and swears just come out as if you never ever loved that person before

Come on, grow up, wise up. Quit eating sour grapes, and reflect on yourself before critising other

This is not the first time, seriously!

Grow some balls, period.

2011-09-05T00:02:00.002+08:00

They all say, everyone needs a lifetime partner, which I do agree. however, there is always another saying, which goes like, " Due to unforeseen circumstances..."

Since 15 months ago, I thought I had sort out my thoughts, and made up my mind. Work helps a lot, it just kills my time and keeps me occupied, but the feeling comes on coming back, hmm, something like a YO-YO. Friends around aint helping either, but not their fault though, cause everyone hates being lonely.

Still, it's all in the mind, and I'm trying my best to stave off the temptations. maybe it's the fear that's holding me back.

I've failed once, and like they said, once bitten, twice shy.

Oh man, i'm heading to bed with a heavy heart, knowing a long week of work awaits me.

2011-09-04T01:17:00.002+08:00

Sep 2011

August has been a insanely crazy month. spend much on good food, movies etc.

Trip to TAIWAN has been booked. 8 days 7 nights. Flight plus accommodations comes up to about $900, and I 'll be bringing about 1K SGD.That effectively means the whole of my Sep pay.

It'll be my virgin trip to Taiwan, can't wait!!

I sign up for my own insurance, albeit with some pending confirmation, and ohh, I met a new friend (:

This month gonna be a busy work month, It means to sleep earlier so I can focus on work and not screw up. I'm looking through UNISIM applications as well, but as usual, I'm undecided on the course to undertake. I'm looking to driving lessons as well, but can't seem to squeeze out the time needed.

I was looking through my new year resolutions, and sadly I'm not any close to even achieving any one of them.

Friends aplenty we have, but close friends can be easily counted with your fingers. I'm glad I have friends whom I can trust, who will be there for me.

That's all that matters. As for love, It's like drug, when you first consume it, it get you so high and hooked on, then when the effects wears off, you want another dose, and when there aint any, you feel like shit.

2011-07-17T23:49:00.002+08:00

I used to have a strong conviction, and it builds my faith. Of course, life's not plain and smooth sailing, and hurdles and obstructions just came into my life, trying to bring me down.

Once, twice, thrice, and then I lost count. Of course, I overcame each and everyone of them, but throughout all these, my faith start to waver, I start to have second thoughts. What If possibilities becomes reality. I started to lose hope.
I know I can't do it all by myself, I know there are friends and family, but some things you gotta do it by your own.

So what gets you going everyday, what gets you up from your bed with a smile on your face, telling yourself you got to make tour day can.

For some of us, It might be ur other half, you dream girl, you crush in school/workplace, or even God.

I used to have them too, but then stuffs happen and it pretty much fucked me up, and i just screwed myself, allowing myself to commit an irreversible act.

Now it's coming back to haunt me. I can't shrug it off, I tried, lot of ways, but it won't go away.

and when it won't go away, it will cripple me, and in the long run, I turn numb, or at leasT that why I tried to do.

2011-07-17T02:38:00.002+08:00

When im down, I like to blog.

I hate it when i'm alone at home, with nothing to do, and start to think about stuffs, reflect on my life etc, cause all these will make me emo, not that my life sucks or what, but it could be better.

Some positives..

Past few days has been on. Road trip to cool places with great food and company!I really ultilise my leave to the maximum, but monday, It's back to work again.

My bank account finally hit 5 digits, and I need to work on it.

I'm still undecided on what to do for my 21st, some of the peeps are busy with NDP and stuffs..

I am back to NYP for the second time since Guardation Day.

both times i went back, both times something major happened.

I think i'm too nice at times.

2011-05-21T21:21:00.002+08:00

21/05/2010, exactly one year ago, I did something that I regretted till date, and forever will. An regret which I will bring right to my grave.

2011-05-10T20:17:00.004+08:00

Wow, as I'm typing, I just realized we are soon reaching the halfway mark of the year.

Workload's piling up. But so far so good, like what I usually says, I can't talk much about work anyway.

Ohh, payday's coming. And this month has got to be the best cause there 's free money from government. Tell me, who hates free cash?!

The weather is kinda pissing me off, especially with me maintianing dry and supposedly whats feel is Long hair.

On a side note, I'm wondering if I should open a chalet for my 21st but thinking about all the planning and hassles just turns me off.

I'm also thinking about getting a part time degree at night and a driving lincese.

So many considerations and decisions making..

I need some advices!

Ohh, and I'm so gonna start studying after a 22 months break,

It's gonna be tough, but $200 cash reward shall make me perserve!

And wait, there's camp planning.

I must tell myself not to be lazy!!!!

To sign off with something random but true,

I blog when I miss you..

2011-02-20T19:22:00.002+08:00

Wow, I realised how fast one can think when you are alone.
I are fully aware that love can't be forced
It's pointless loving someone when you know she can recipocate.
Having a quick look at your photos and photos, I can fully tell how happy you are right now.
I'm making a vow to myself this particular moment.
01/03 shall be the day I let go, cause till date, I have been trying in vain.
Perhaps there isn't enough determination, but enough is enough.
It's really time to let go, like a child holding onto a ballon, time to free the ballon so as to free myself (:
Tingjun, it's only just a dream.
I can do this! Time for a battle, hearts vs mind!
Time to untie the knot, before it turns into a dead one.

2011-02-20T19:01:00.002+08:00

Spending time alone, enjoying the cool Breeze, oblivious to the surroundings, deep in my own thoughts. They say men are only troubled by two things, love and money, and I'm unfortunately by both.
I'm getting to KL this weekends for soccer against Malaysia, I was pretty screwed up in training yesterday.
Seem to have lost my focus, sigh! We will be stopping at Malacca, and this thought stirred up overwhelming emotions from within me.
The first time I saw you..
Someone please erase my memory,
Work as usual tomorrow.
When you don't feel like talking, I guess a shopping spree'll help greatly.

2011-02-16T23:31:00.004+08:00

I remembered the first chinese compo i wrote when i was in primary three.

My ambition was to be a policeman.

it's funny how your thinkings changes, ur behaviour shaped due to environments and suitations.

I thought I have a passion for IT..

I want to take a part time degree, but I know I'll be in this fight alone.

It's tough becoming the breadwinner for the family, when i don;t even have enough for my own use.

Everynight, it's the simple dishes, and it's always the same conversation.

Sad.

I'm envious of people I know who has strong bonds with their family, when they can sit down having dinner tgt and sharing even the slightest things.

Sometimes, it's just so tiring to put on a brave front, to act like everything's fine.

2011-02-13T02:38:00.002+08:00

It feels good to buy something with youir own money.

$480 iphone, finally!

Cny was okay, not as great as last year, the mood's like not there.

One month at work, aint too bad :>

I'm back to soccer, and first up is KL trip at the end of the month.

Monday, 14th feb, a day at work, just like any normal working day.

When i can't sleep, I listen tos ongs, and think, think about all possible stuffs you can think of.

2011-01-22T09:52:00.002+08:00

Given my rate of spending, I can just kiss my resolutions goodbye.

I wish I could teleport right now, to a place full of pasture, enjoying quiet, quality time alone.

2011-01-20T23:54:00.002+08:00

It's kinda funny when I think about my present life, and compared with dreams I used to harbour when was a kid.

I should be in the third year of my uni now! Nah, like I said, that was an impossible dream.

Life's can't be as smooth sailing as we want it to be like, cause then, it won't be exciting and unpredictable.

I've got this on off flu, and the stupidest thing I've done this week is steeping on my own shoelaces, and cause myself to fall in the office. HAHAHA. Joke!

Work's pretty good this week, fewer calls as compared to the norm,
like they say, enjoy while it lasts!

Friday, and the weekends awaits! (:

2011-01-16T01:31:00.002+08:00

First it was guitar, now it's soccer.

I have officially quit soccer with effect from this particular moment.. Seven years, there were many fond memories, but the best was the match against the JB team. Anyway, my passion in soccer went down hill Early last year. Too many players vying for GK position, so I was cool, I opt for defender, but lack of ball control, strengths means I can't make it, much less having a go at goal.

Soon, i realise I was doing lots of running, and watching the ball, even if someone does pass to me, the ball will be lost in less than 5 seconds. I feel that I'm no longer part of the team. I know the coach and some players tried hard, maybe it's just me not voicing out, and made hells lots of excuses.

It's about time for new blood, It's the end of a chapter, and the start of a new one.

Okay, this is kinda late but here's my new year's resolutions:

1: 60kg by 31/12/2011
2: $20,000 by 31/12/2011
3: Decide and pursue on a part time Degree
4: Find back my passion in certain stuffs
5: Get a girlfriend

Okay, I gotta admit the last one is crap cause I can't think of anymore at the moment.

Goals are meant to worked at, I should make haste!

2011-01-15T10:44:00.002+08:00

Reflections

5D4N Outreach at Cambodia

18/12/2010

Day one
We met at Changi Airport Terminal 2 at 11.30am. I was feeling really excited as this trip was unlike previous trip where we will just chill relax and have lots of fun. This trip is about inspiring the Cambodians there, helping them and in turn, learning from them and inspiring ourselves as well. More over, each of us have done lots of planning and preparations prior to this trip and these make us eagerly anticipating whether the trip would be an eventual success.
Seeing beaming faces of fellow teammates and parents just sums up all the excitement.
Once we reach Siem Reap , we met up with our tour guide and coach driver and made our way to prum Bayon hotel. Check in, wash up, and I thought out what I saw along the way to hotel. People cycling, driving, begging on roadsides, some playing without clothes , while some are just making a living, selling fruits on roadside etc. All these made me ponder, one thing for sure ‘s I wish Singapore can be less heretic, slow pace down, enjoy the surroundings and you will see a lot of beautiful things.

We travel to a restaurant for dinner. Dinner was good, especially the veggies, Morning glory I think. We proceed to the night market. It was filled with hustle and bustle. Vec hies and people moving around at the same time. We moved around in our groups, and come to know of bargaining, which I have experienced in hongkong before. Being young, I was kind of reckless and bought a watch for quite a hefty price at the first store I encountered, which happens to be a watch shop. However, it was about the experiences, and after which I begin to know about the trick to bargaining. Stay firm, and I managed to get the rest of my stuffs at a reasonable price.

Back to hotel, shower, relax and sweet dreams.

19/12/2010
Day 2

Morning breakfast was at the hotel. After which we proceeded to meet up with the tour guide and made our way to the sandstorm temple, on the way there, the tour guide explained to us about the religions in Cambodia, the difference between Angkor Wat and Angkok Thom.

We visited the Bayon temple, which is also known as the sandstorm temple. It was fanaticising to see the temple with their beautiful structures and amazing crafting skills. Zero technology, but somehow, through sheer hard work, they have left a legacy for decades to come. We continued to Angkor Thom, which is supposedly one of the seven wonders in the world. Crafting that tell a story, it just leaves my imagination running. I always love history, and was captivated in the words of the tour guide, about the massacre in 1975 and etc.
Cambodia food has their own uniqueness. Sweet fruits, raw veggies, duck egg, and more.

We made our long trip to Khmer Homestay. Along the way, I saw the vast change in living conditions, from small flats to wooden huts, from shopping centres to farms. I witnessed naked children running about barefooted. Yet, they were still so happy. I just make me feel how lucky I am.

After we reached the village, we could certainly see the differences, no more luxury hotel, spacious room, king sized bed, bathtub, instead we have wooden hut, mattress & fans (which is considered really fortunate), and shower spray with cold water though. It was better than what I have imagined. Yes, we might be feeding the mosquitos, but somehow I just felt the cosy feeling, the feeling of warmth.
I must admit that a lot of necessities has been arranged for us, For example, meals are cooked and served to us( all of us help to serve at times, and”kiap” food for one another(: ) There are comfy mattress with pillows, instead of us sleeping on hard wooden floor with insects crawling around. I know we can’t truly experience the life of a typical Cambodian village boy, but its makes me feel really appreciative of little stuffs, things done behind the scene.

Of course I have not forgot about our objective in the midst of all the fun. After dinner, we procceding with the packing of clothes and caps we were supposed to distribute to the villagers the following day. The planning phase was a bit confused, like how to split the groups and who to pack what, However, with the help of the HFC volunteers and initiative shown by most of us, we got the ball rolling and managed to get the packing done in a short time. I have started falling ill at this time, with cough and flu, maybe it’s due to the dry weather, but I told myself to stay strong and finish what I am supposed to do, to teach yet learn at the same time, to experience and bring back valuable lessons that textbooks can never offer (:

20/12/2010

Day 3

This was a busy, enriching day! I swore I found it tough to wake up, with all the flu and cough getting to my nerves. I was more worried about spreading the virus to my friends. I knew this day’s going to be packed, so I told myself to get Going.
After breakfast, we travel a short distance to a small village. From the surroundings, you can see that the villagers were poor, living conditions were not good, there can be up to eight people staying in one small hut, and I always complained about earning big bucks to stay in a landed property next time. This struck me hard. This is reality, Where some people are born with a sliver spoon, living a life of luxury, there are bound to be poor people, working so hard just to let ends meet, et they are always smiling, joyful. I saw it’s is oy right from the hard, When I pass clothes and especially the bags of rice to the families, you can really see their heartfelt gratitude, yes, we might not be able to understand what they say, but through body language, smiles, I really feel for them, empathy. I suppose, Rice I leave wasted on plates would have been so precious to them. At that point, I felt ashamed. The trip to the families has left plenty penny for thoughts.

In the afternoon, the local youth and also some youth with disabilities joined us for games. The games we have prepared requires just actions and is simple to play. I could see all of them enjoying themselves. I am really impressed some of them knew English. Yes, it might be basic, but You can really tell the effort they put it, to give themselves a better education, the willingness to learn. I thought about my own education, I have all the faculties, lecturers, study materials, yet I didn’t put them to good use.

We shared about our life back in Singapore with them through the help of the translators. We can’t really tell how they are feeling, maybe they are envious of us, they might be wonder what will have become of them if they are given the same chances as us. I am a lucky boy, Yet I often complained.

I kept thinking, making comparisons. Yes, I am already living a blissful life. Everyone has their own hurdles to overcome in life, however it’s about the mindset we have while trying to overcome them. Learn to be contented and views things from a different perspective Sometimes, its all about the making the best of what you have, and not about complained what you could have to make things easier or better (:
In the night, the Cambodian youths came in huge numbers. When I passed them small snacks, they were all very polite and thank you, you can see the sincerity in the eyes.

Funny videos of MR. Bean really tickle all of us, and we passed out clothes and caps to them before we gather to share about what we have experienced and in turn, they shared about what they have learnt from us. From what they have share, I was so touched that I tear. You can see all of tem are really brave, waning to make a difference, to change their lives for the better.
It was a night with full of thoughts, learning, and self reflections.

Day 4

21/12/10

By the morning, we have packed our own stuffs and after breakfast, we travelled to a local primary school. Adorable kids started rushing towards us when they see us from afar. We taught them how to fold hearts, make toy planes and paper ball. One particular girl that caught my attention was this tiny girl with curly girl sitting at the middle row. She learnt fast and help her classmates beside her with the folding of hearts. It was so sweet! You can tell they really enjoyed the toys, drawings & colorings. Kids are always so innocent and free-willed. They just bring smiles to us!

After lunch, we travelled to the city of Phnom Penh. You can see the hustle and bustle, taller buildings with lots of cars and people on bikes. Tne night market was closed on weeldays, so we checked into the villa. Spacious bed again. Lucky us.
We travelled to a fast food outlet for dinner. One interesting to note as compared to fast food back in Singapore is in Cambodia,, portions of food are huge. Yummy!
We went to sit for the Toot toot ride. I must say this is one of the highlights. I’nvr sit in anything like this before, maybe the closest is trishaw. We enjoyed the cool breeze, music, beautiful scenery and causal chat! We went back to villa, showered, and shared our experiences with each other, then there was a mini party but most of them fell asleep. I slept at 4am!

22/12/10

Day 5

Final day. We visited the palace, somehow, I have a feeling, it’s like a scarred place. Gold, silver jade, even the floor is covered entirely in silver. Statures everywhere, its pretty amazing!
We went to a market to buy clothes, food, handicrafts and some books. We proceed to the airport, and soon we were on the plane back home.

I left with a mixed feeling. Part of me miss Cambodia, but another part of me knows there are many tasks waiting for me back in Singapore. Lots of learning points, and I believe that if there’s a similar trip in future, we do it better. Do as One, yes we might have been assigned into three groups, but ultimately, we are one big family with a common objective! We left memories but have also created memories that will be etched deeply in our minds for years to come! (:

2010-12-30T06:06:00.003+08:00

One of those usual nights. when i can't fall asleep. I wanted to finish up with my cambodia reflections, but somehow, I just went to reminisce the good old memories via internet. photos, gifts, posts.

In a desperate bid to forget you, i tried all sort of stuffs, including those extreme ones which i've came to regret.

In any case, love aint for me, and looking forward 2011 will be a new year, with new hope and I'll be starting a new chapter in my life, the workaholic chapter!

I need to catch some sleep.

2010-12-30T01:18:00.002+08:00

I opened my drawer, turned the lid of the jar, took out the piece of paper and look through my 2010 resolutions. Sad to say, I've not even achieved 1/4 of it. This year is more like a year of transition. Pretty roller-coaster year, but the best is still the cambodia trip. I wish things could just slow down in sg. Anyway 2010 is drawing to an end.

Sometimes, I still think I'm trapped in the past, i wish i can lock my feelings towards you all in a jar, seal it and bury it six feets under the earth.

2010-12-18T01:11:00.002+08:00

Cambodia, here I come,

Then its Christmas, and new year.

Then it's work.

So fast, it's been a year, sadly, I have failed most of my 2010 resolutions, but It's been really diffrent year as compared to the past.
The transition from a student to a working adult.

I shall blog more after I'm back, and I'm determined to end 2010 with a bang!

cheers!

2010-12-08T16:42:00.001+08:00

Sometimes, It's good to spend some time alone, away from distractions, and isolating from the world temporary (:

2010-10-09T01:23:00.003+08:00

Wow, this's oni my 100th post, just goes to show how inactive I'm.

This week's different from the usual norm, cause i went for OBS.

Last time i went for obs's on leadership way back in sec 2.

3 days of fun, challenges, bonding.

It really about taking the initiative to step up, get out of the comfort zone.

Some highlights during the 3D2N:

Rock Climbing
Kayaking
Jetty Jump
Night Walk

To be honest, I feel that I'm not as vocal as compared to my usual self, something's holding me back, but still glad to see the rest stepping up, which is good, cause Its abt the team, not an individual. still a sense of achievement that I tried out all the activities
sad that there's no flying fox.

Jetty jump was the most awesome of all seadiving , man I have the most beautiful dive, landing face first into the seabed, and causing two pimples on my forehead to burst due to the water pressure. Ouch!

I feel, I am still not strong enough, kinda dependant at times, I know sometimes it beyond our limits, but I know I can actually do it, maybe im just kinda lazy.
special thanks to my buddy, Shawn! I won't have made it without you!

Overall, it's really an great experiences, much learning, and insights gained for preparation for the community outreach proj in cambodia in dec.

I promise that I will step up, by then.

Anyway, Today I took off from work, but i still went back iras and my manager saw me. opps!

I'll be having screening interview this coming tues for perm job at iras, hopefully I can get it, kind of nervous cause there's some written test, not that I can't write, It just something we all have when we go for job interviews, the fear of rejection?

I don't deny I need the money, It's just sad when I look at my bank balance , and see that the amt is drastically decreasing. Sighs, and my pay is not in yet!

So today, nyp sent me a mail wrt Singapore University of Technology & Design.It's kind of interesting, and there'll be a briefing follow by applications for admissions, however, the uni is oni really in 2015, by that time, i will be like 25?!.

Should i wait so long, hold on, maybe I won't even make the cut. Seriously, the competitions for places In uni is totally insane. Private uni will cost me a bomb, so the most likely choice is to work and study at the same time.
Of course, this will depends on circumstatcies. Sometimes, a tiny situation that arises might well ruin ur whole plan, but that aints the end of the world, of course.

I need some advice.

Anyway, here's a pic to light up my dull blog! heh.

So tmr, there's keyboard,swimming and hangingout. I love weekends, because after that, it's back to the norm, and reality of life. I know I can make the norm to be smth diff, but that will nid massive inspiration, and I need to find it fast.

OBS was great even if it means having to endure cuts, sunburn, and plenty of love bites from those blood loving mosquitoes. :)

Nights world!

2010-10-04T22:47:00.002+08:00

Helloo!

Meetups are always fun and precious, with great fun of course.

It's really heart warming, when a five/six yrs old cutie pie walk past you and said bye to you, with a smile of course. Kinda random but really sweet!(:

Gonna take a short braek from work.

OBS, HERE I COME! Wheee!

2010-09-28T23:56:00.002+08:00

Lovesick feeling's bothering me lately. Tsk, this aint good, I need to get a grip.

The love I need,
is the air I breathe,
a place to rest,
My head.

Am I really an inspiration to others? Maybe, but I know deep within my heart, I'm holding back, bulit up a wall for self defence, to hide my deepest, darkest secrets. I don't wish to put on a facade, but I can't help it.

Letting go, easier said than done, I can't reverse time,

We can look back with regrets, but life still gotta go on.

Move it, Ting Jun.

2010-09-27T21:02:00.003+08:00

It's coming to the end of the month. This mth has been real quick.
Anyway, I've thinking a lot, as in deep thinking, let's see

Family, Love, Money and Future.

I'm kind of alone at home, cause twin bro is still slogging out at Tekong, Dad and elder bro are still recovering, mum pretty tired after work recently.

I have the greatest respect for my mum, but somehow I don't show it with words nor actions. It's more of silent acknowledgement, I feel I'm lacking smth within the family, the warmth, laughter has been long gone. We are like doing our own stuffs,and i admit Im not making any efforts in trying, I contribute my share to the family every month, and That'sit, i'vfe done my part, but deep down, I know that's not the way.

Kind of sad to know that my friends knows me better than my family. sighs.
Anyway, I just hope dad and bro have speedy recovery. That's more impt.

Ah, love, Hahaha. Seriously, I seldom talk abt it too, but one thing's for sure, i'm a novice at it. Maybe's love is not the thing for me, I always seem to be lacking the final step, maybe because I alwys feel I aint good enough, and I tend to think too far ahead, E.G; what would her parents think? I know love's game for two, but I can't help it. I have confidence in myself, But somehow, thinking of all the possible hurdles placed in front of me, It makes me wanna give up even before I start, and when I muster enough courage, Im always one step slower, cause your heart would've been taken.

Sometimes I wonder why is it so hard to forget the first girl you love, cause even when she
s already attached, I still think about her at times.
I already cut down on sms, msn chat, meetups, almost all zero, but I know I still haven get over it yet, I need to move on, i aint wanna be lovestruck.

Anyway, a certain someone caught my eye recently. i swore i was kind of awestruck when i first saw her. Bubbly, pretty, adorable. A new friend yes, crush? highly, but what i know is, she got my attention. I'm not getting too hyped up over this, cause there are mnore worthwhile things to persue after at this moment:) Honestly, i seem to have a fetish for girls with cute bangs. damn!

Money's the root of all evil, cause its never enough. Man, i spent all of my last mth pay. Totally goner
Sad, and more fees await me, I need get trackpants, boxers, camp fee, prepaid card, funding, mthly household contribution, transport fee and of courses my expenses. I need a perm job soon, if not i might need to dig deep in to my reserves :(

Just a quick update in case you guys are not aware, me working as a temp at iras and has apply as a perm staff at my current division just last week, of course me aint reading too much into it, I mean, It's a chance, so why not give it a try, so am still waiting for good news, hopefully. Wish me luck!
I seriously can't believe I work for 7 mths now, with 4 mths being at iras.Working certianly being a diff expourse, out of the textbook context, I've been going for part time work during poly vacations, but iras is definitely my longest stint thus far. I must say i am lucky, colleagues are nice, good working environment, decent pay, what more to ask for?

I can finally understand the pain of a working adult, esp my parents, and the reward is $$$, and speaking of that, pay day's coming.

After this upcoming obs camp, I'll back to work on a friday, to see a increase in my bank acct. Wahahaha!sep mth won't be that much, cause this mth non peak , so means lesser OT, lesser pay.

As for future, lets just take one day at a time first, I am so looking forward to obs and cambodia Trip. WOOOTS!!!

Long post huh?! Enjoy. Cheers!

2010-09-19T00:39:00.003+08:00

It's pretty strange how life turns out. I feel like i've just finish a one hour plus rollercoaoster ride.

Crazy night but left myself with plently penny(s) for thoughts.

Maybe I shld be more composed.

No wonder they say words can kill, but there always room for apologies

Nevertheless, I don't wish to go thru this crazy night ever again

One hell of a night, but it's eventually rainbow after the storm :)

2010-09-19T00:08:00.003+08:00

Hey Dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according
To plan?
Do you think I’m wasting
My time doing things I
Wanna do?
But it hurts when you
Disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I’m never gonna be good
Enough for you
I can’t pretend that
I’m alright
And you can’t change me

‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be
My hero?
All the days
You spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don’t
Care anymore

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I’m never gonna be good
Enough for you
I can’t stand another fight
And nothing’ alright

‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect

Nothing’s gonna change
The things that you said
Nothing’s gonna make this
Right again
Please don’t turn your back
I can’t believe it’s hard
Just to talk to you
But you don’t understand

‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect

‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect

19 sep 2010

Today, I've found out that One this whole year, all I have done for the family is in vain. Striaght after my graduation, I went to find a job, To help ease the fiancial woes and burden on my mum, I don't mind giving money, I don't mind putting my studies on hold, but now what, This minor issue just blew up cause my dad say one No, I ' like I worked for 9 mths, I just want a break to to gain insights which I can't learn in school. And now, you hide in your room and ask ur mum to talk to me, and y elder bro just give me a piece of his own mind, okay my bad cause he's still recovering from his eye operation and my tone towards my mum and bro were really bad. my twin bro 's in army now. No one in my family see, to understand,

My anger has got the better of me, and that makes things worse,

The feeling of anguish and somewhat mid depression, a bitter feeling I need to get out of the house now.

2010-09-18T23:33:00.002+08:00

Day totally spoiled. I 've never feel so angry before, I was so looking forward to the cambodia trip, then you refused to let me go? WHY, just because the form said you must go through a medical examination and all these whatever blah blah. Come on, I am alraedy 20, I know how to fucking take care of myseklf damn it, and you refused to listen, I am going with people who I know, what the fuck, and Its not as if ib have not been to obs camp before! I seriously don't know what wrong with you, You are 50 plus. You don't want work, I did even questions, I just want take a break and go enjoy stuffs which I want, and you have to say No, and then you don't wnt listen when in tried to exoplain, you just hide in ur room!

And you know what, as i am tying this right now, my bro came out and tried to talk his own srense into me. Nobody understands. Don't give me lectures That I need to go National service or whatsoever, when I can't even fucking go in, nota s if I don't want,

Nobody understands, Fuck my life!

2010-07-04T23:43:00.002+08:00

Greetings! Yo know what, It pretty amazing how fast things can change completely, like for example,

How things are looking bleak just a week ago, and then by the next week, its all changes!

This week wasn't too bad overall.

Yog press conference.
NDP rehearsal was a blast.
Work is alright, but I'm kinda slow,
and I can't leave hse on time!
Oh well, I just do my best.
New friends, catch up with old friends,
pretty cool!
weekends need to be wisely utilized,
cause weekdays are always burnt out.

You know, I got this mixed feeling.
My dad says I need to contribute since i'm working now,
I don't deny that,
but what if I don't get what i deserve,
i just feel that i'm not appreciated at times.
Still, I know there are good friends I can count on.
So I didn't submit my smu appeal,
I gotta put my uni dreams on hold,
oh wait, hold on a second,
maybe I'm not up to it after all.
It's all about decisions
wise ones of course.

2010-06-23T00:24:00.003+08:00

You know what, for 19 years and 10 months, I thought nothing can deter me, now that I realised I've killed myself, I need a revival. Love, fame, money, lust, image are all but masks. It's only superficial, it's all lies, is it all worthwhile? people say, no risk no gain, but can you afford that element of risk? I've lost myself. My mind's all twisted, my heart's hurting, and my mind is weary. I can't recognise myself anymore.

Where was the innocent, simple, nerd, dumb, yet happy me?

Cause and effect, actions and consequences, gain and sacrifice. I thought I was game for it, but no it's game over.

2010-06-14T00:12:00.002+08:00

Angry, disappointed, vexed, gutted, confused, lost. In short, i feel like crap.

Six years, everyday i wait for you to tell me, so you may said why i don;t ask you instead, cause I'm giving you your due respect. There's no point anymore. From today, I'm living by my own, on my own decisions. I'm fighting this war alone. I'm slowly feeling the pinch, where I barely have enough for myself, and I have to contribute when I don't have any reason to.

Oh well, let's just put it as I owe you.

You never ask, you don't seem to care. Lack of communication, lack of warmth, and even my.. lack of support.

Vanished into thin air. Do you know what I really wanted?

Take it, and leave me to do as I please.

I hate this feeling.

So this is what independence is, and what a man shall do, at the expense of his own dreams.

Oh wait, Aren't dreams just fantasy?! Yeah right.

2010-06-07T00:51:00.000+08:00

Right now, I'm happy, as in really.

I'm happy for you, cause I believe you have finally found the prince of your life.
Congrats! ^^

Love's can be expressed in many ways, and mine's just one of the many many. Love's a journey Memories exist and will remain, the good, bad sweet bitter. It's all these hat makes up love. I certainly hope your journey will be a blissful one, as for me, I'm slowly starting on my new journey.

All right, so second week at iras was concluded , pretty okay, i guess. new environment, new friends, new learning experiences. pretty interesting.

Half a year, passes so fast. This year is a lot different from previous years, cause I'm working, earning my own keep, have my own freedom to buy what i want, from my own pocket, the downside, spending more, which can become addictive. Working is kind of a drag, as it, it's really like a routine. I mean, yes, there are pretty cool stuffs, with great colleagues, but in the log run, its just kind of get boring.

All these boils down to money. sigh. I think it's really sad when people become obsessed with money , eventually leading to mi-using them , or even corruption. Money was a need, a basic need for survival, now look a what it has become, even in the religion aspect, greedy people are misusing the name of God or their own personal gain. Tragic.

So, bestfriend's in tekong right now, choing-suaing, and so is bin. A couple of my poly friends are also going in tomorrow. Soon, all my male buddies will be all in, and that'll mean lesser bonding sessions and men's talk!

Meet up and chilling sessions with friends are great, even if it's a short one. Sometimes, we all need to listen and see things from another perspective, and they always say, when you can't spot your own mistake, a friend can always point out to you. We are all learning, yeah.

This morning, i read through this article about people with autism. I was really touched after reading the entire articles, with stories about mothers and their autism child, how their daily life like, and their difficulties. I realised how blessed I'm already am.

Eveytime, I tell myself to not let emotions get the beter of me, and people of autism can't control their emotions well, yet they stil bravely try to keep their temper in check, be independent with the loving support from their families, keeping them strongly kinted together.

Oh man, This really makes me feel ashamed. If they can, I can too! Some people might not accept and understand, that doesn't matter. What raell matters is you believing in yourself, and accepting the circumstances around you, and making the best of it.

Ting Jun, It's all starts from the mind. I can do it :)

Monday blues, it starts with conquering you! HAHA.

2010-05-31T01:12:00.002+08:00

2 months,

Zero sms, zero pm, zero contact.
It just goes to show how insignificant I'm to you.
Am I disappointed?
No, I'm kinda numb to it, cause I expected it.
I'm losing interest in everything,
guitar, soccer, gaming.
I'm pondering about life,future.
I'm trying to move on,
like what you're doing.
So my life just revolves about work and money.
Hmm, at least my weekends were not wasted,
Bonding with friends are always great.
My friends are gonna choing sua soon,
I'll never experience it.

Your birthday's just round the corner,
but this year's totally different,
cause I'm not making a difference.

I'm still working on my SMU appeal letter.
I'm missing something,
I feel so screwed up.

I need time,
and I'm running out of them.

2010-05-28T00:25:00.002+08:00

Woah! I'm so busy, that I don't have time to finish updating on the kl trip and graduation day so no pictures =( Actually it's all in facebook.

Okay. i just finished my 3 days intenstive training at IRAS. I can't reveal much details about my work but basically i'm in the enforcer division and my main task is handling phone enquires by taxpayers and tax agents. Met some new friends, but was kind of tired and focussing on the lectures and trainings, so didn't talk much. Opps!

So my previous job at Forerunner Express was a pretty good one, small yet cosy, but it had to end on a rather sour note and I only have myself to blame. i don't want to dwell on it but its kind of sucks just by the tought of it.

Work gonna take proper on Monday. today's Vesak day, so i can't take a well-deserved break! I need some long hours of sleep! Public holidays and weekends never seem so precious until I started working full time.

My back's kind of hurts and the blister on my sole isn't getting any better. It's been like half a year! Zz..

You know what i am still quite confused about my future. I'm not the kind who plans out a road for myself cause I feel that would be kind of rigid and i'm too lazy for that kind of detail-ness. I just want to have a fruitful EVERyDay and be happy.

thing's aren't gong too well for me recently, But I'll still strive on. For now it's work saving up $ and re-applying for uni next year. I shall be looking at private uni, cause i don't really have much options. its kind of costly and that explains why i should work harder and save up more!

This year passes really fast, gonna reach the half year mark soon, and speaking of that remains me of your birthday. Alright i'm not getting emo and stuff, but this year 's gonna be really different. I made myself a promise so I can't break it.

So I am gonna wish you a Happy Birthday In advance!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! SWEET 18! Haha.

Maybe you won't even see this, but i's the thoughts that counts right?

I will just stand and watch from afar, yo know, something like a silent guardian angel, okay okay, a bit kua zhang, but that's the whole point.

Alright man, time for 8 hours of slep, AT LEAST! shiok.

It's gonna be a packed weekend.

2010-05-24T00:03:00.003+08:00

People make mistakes, I'm no saint. I make mistakes too. Sometimes, by impulse, or peer pressure, or even fun, depending on how you define it, we try out some new stuffs, stunts, dares, whatever you call it.

So when we look back, we might have some regrets, guilt, but what's done can't be undone. We have to live with it.

Condoning to the ways of the modern society, fashion , the hip and "in" things, worldly desires, temptations, many people lives are constantly shaped by all these factors, and sad to say, I'm slowly become one of them.

I wish I can turn back the clock, when things were much simpler, when my life revolves around school family, friends and God.

I's all different now. Sometimes, I feel I've lost my old self, the naive but happy me.

is it all worthwhile? perhaps not, cause what the price we have to pay?

I've lost, it, and i'll lose you soon enough. I'm not worthy of you, at all.

In short, I've let you down.

I am sorry.

I tried everything I wanted in life, If it's time for goodbyes, I will gladly accept it.

2010-05-19T23:32:00.002+08:00

I'm actually in the midst of updating about the KL trip..

Tomorrow is my graduation day, so I'm suposed to look forwad to it yeah?

Somehow, i am just not that hype- red up for it all,

and you are in the same school as me.
and I have a ticket meant for you,
but two months with zero contact,
and now wanting me to tell you,
would mean that two months of effort's wasted.
But then again, If i see you tomorrow,
It'll be so great,
just a photo is sufficient.

My parents are coming along,
photos, photos and more photos,
den night out with the usual peeps.

Long day ahead!

kou shi xin fei.. Sighs!

2010-05-12T23:31:00.002+08:00

I'm HERE! I'm really excited now.

Work's kind of different without my best friend around. I'm getting the hang of it though, some minor mistakes here and there. i want to improve! Talking bus alone kind of sucks, but that's life, i guess, sometimes, we gotta face things on our own!

Got my pay a couple of days ago. That's not all, I'm going KL SOOON! I should really be sleeping now, I got a early flight to catch, and I'm so so looking forward to it! Though it's just three days, I have to make full use of them. FUN FUN FUN!!!

I will upload photos, i won't be lazy, i hope. This year's fast

Don't miss me, folks! I 'll be back!

Till Then..

P.S : I miss you, i really do.

2010-05-05T00:34:00.002+08:00

Today, I took leave from work. got my well deserved rest . I'm looking forward to pay day. i have lots of things troubling me, but then I'm not in the mood to blog.

yest was jer bday's celebration. I'm sure he had lots fun, along with the rest of us who were there.

went back school today. it was a different feeling, and so i didn't see you, sigh, actually I want to see you but i don't want you to se me. oh well, doesn't matter now. I wonder why is it so hard to get over, argh!

Went to astons to makan with zh. talked quite abit, before heading home.

There's work tomorrow, and it's gonna be my best friend's last few days at work. Sad.

SMU rejected me, i get get over you, and you know what, just when you are trying to put on a brave front, encouraging similarly disappointed friends around you , they just have to freaking pissed me off with their reactions. So much for the concern! Some people are just so self centered.

So people have to screw up my day, just when I'm about to sleep, and this means insomnia later. Sucks big time!

BUT at the end of the day, life still goes on. I need a shoulder, I need to pour out my woes, and you are always not there when i need you, can't help but feel that i'm so insignificant to you.

My day's ruined. My night 's ruined, so a bad tomorrow won't be a surprise to me.

2010-04-24T01:06:00.002+08:00

Roller coaster week at work, not that I want it. Learning from mistakes, easier said than done. Work's keeping me really busy, to the extent that i have to ta bao to eat in the office every single day. i had malay food for four consecutive days. It's like the only nice food at the small coffeshop. I think my payday's next week, hopefully.

It feels kind of different going work alone today. I'm getting used to the daily routine, it's just like memorizing dance steps, from the first to the last.

Maybe I'm thinking too much, but i can't help but feel that way, cause time prove me right. sighs, it's all pointless at this stage. One month, but it seem like 10 years. Damn. it's hurts, soon it will hurt till I eventually become immune to it all.

Argh, feeling super lousy now. it just so hard to get over you, keeping myself busy is the only solution, and i'm doing it right now.

I'm looking forward to May.

9 June 2007 to 23th March 2010. the sweetness, bitterness and also the end.

2010-04-18T01:25:00.003+08:00

Alright, just a quick one, cause I'm really tired and i want to sleep right now.

Feels good to nua at home one whole day, after 5 days of hard work. I didn't exactly nua, more like staring at my lappy's screen throughout the day, and now my eyes kinda hurt.

So work was okay, screwed up a bit on wed, but oh well, i'm already trying my best. Friday was a realy busy day, but it helps with nice colleagues around, and a best friend working with you. i guess a bit of scolding won't hurt.

Louis and I had ba kau teh for dinner after work on Friday. It was good.

Circle line extension opened today, and i didn't know S.H.E were there until Dad told me about it just now, and he's a huge fan of them. Haha! Hmm, I'm still thinking if i should take circle line to work on monday or stick with bus, cause I'm spending a bomb on transports fees, 30 bucks used up in one week. Insane!! that makes up to $120 in a month?!

No soccer training tmr =( I want go out, don't want waste my precious weekends, anyone wan jio me? Lol.

oh, I had a heart to heart talk with Louis at my house downstairs on Friday night. I have to give up, cause ultimately, it won't work out. I'm one who thinks about long term, I don't want just short-lived happiness or enjoyments. Ah! I don't know how to put it, but bottom line is, i'm giving you up, and the best thing is we are still friends! Anyway,it's always me trying to keep it up, keep things going, and sso now, I'm putting a stop to it, and maybe it doesn't really matter to you anyway.

It's impossible for all things to end well, but what's certain is that memories will remain, experience was gained, and I guess throughout these two years, going three, I have become a more mature guy.

That's me when i was 4 years old! Cuute right? A child without worries. sometimes i wish life could be simpler. I wish i could tun back the clock, I wish that I can live in my own fantasy world, at times.

Maybe I should control my dream tonight! Nights peeps.

2010-04-11T12:37:00.002+08:00

The last time I went to a funeral, it was my grandfather's one. That was quite some year back, about six years back. My biggest regret was not learning Hainanese, which is my family dialect, hence results in few conversations between me and my grandfather. However, there was mutual understanding. I remembered how he always shielded me when my dad wants to cane me for mistakes that i did, literally using his body as a human shield to cover me, how he break up fights betwen my twin bro and me, stuffing tiny amounts of dolars notes into my hands when i was young, and urging me to buy sweets and toys that i desired. i remembered I cried on the last day of the wake. From then on, I promised myself to converse more with people I care, aiding them if the need arises, and to cherish life, and live it to the fullest.

Yesterday, i went for the third funeral in my life, the atmosphere was solemn, and when i saw the photo and coffin, i was trying hard to hold back my tears, literally choking inside. Memories start flashing back.

My primary school pal, I still remembered me having fun art you classroom during flag raising ceremony cause we no need to attend, chasing each other in he class room, me, you ruiyi, and alan joined in sometimes too. I remembered how my bros and I went to your house at bishan, and play monopoly and other board games with you and your younger brother. After i moved to sengkang, we lost contact for quite a while,
until i saw you at AWWA one day. i still remember me waving to you, and you coming up and said,

"Hey Ting jun, long time to see."

" Yeah, so what are you dong now?" I eplied

so we chatted quite a bit and stuffs, recaling the good old times.

To me, you are a really cheerful person, and nothing seems to daunt you, a really determined person and a dear friend. I'll always remember you!

Seeing his dad breaking down in tears was heart-wrenching, and his dad telling me keng fatt and kai soon about how it all happened almost prove too much for me.

The greatness of a parent's love, the sorrow and pain upon losing a loved one, who can fathom it unless we truly experience it ourselves.

So guys, cherish your loves one, and don't take things for granted!

2010-04-07T23:36:00.001+08:00

Another day in the office.. Sighs. Okay the work isn't really that bad, now that i am getting quite used to it all, but some customers have just juice in their brains, pissing me of, but oh well, that what you will expect when working in the customer service line. Phone's keep ringing and rining, but i guess I'm handling pretty well, and one tactic, ALWAYS look busy, even when you are not! HAHAHA. I'm already looking forward to my payday when it's only the first week of the month.

Sometimes, it's good to be alone, cause you tend to be more observant to things around you, like watching a kid, singing the ABC song in the train. so cute and innocent. Really makes me =) Walking home down the long path every night always gives me time to reflect about my day, how it went, the good and the bad, and of course, plenty food for thought.

So Louis acc-ed me to smu to drop my application form and all the relevant documents. Saw like three people behind me also placing the stuffs into the drop box. Tough competition, but that's life.

Funny how one's mindset changes over time, and experiences.

Alright, it's time to hit the sack.

2010-04-02T23:54:00.001+08:00

Good friday was good, but i'm feeling really sad right now. it's like my heart's overwhelming with sorrow. I'll talk about that in a while. right now, just a quick update.

Work was okay, but as usual, i screwed up two orders on Thursday morning. oh well, i gotta learn fast before i sink fast. Went to timbre to celebrate zh's birthday after work at timbre! pizza was okay, some wasn't really that great, the sides were too little, the drink was good though. I ordered Sex on the beach and tried some other drinks. Went to catch clash of the titans in 3d, but the 3d thingy was an entire scam, it wasn't even 3d at all. the starting part of the show was good, but fighting scenes sucks especially the last few ones. Zh and me were laughing throughout the show, so it was a good thing hoe mun didn't join us for the movies. Shared cab with edward and headed back home. 21 bucks! I spent a bomb.

Today's good friday and it also zhong hui's birthday! 21 liao wor. HUAT ah! went to gene house to finalise the trip to KL, booked everything and stufs. 180 bucks flew from my pocket, but fun comes with a price, so yeah. makan at KFc, and went back sengkang discuss what to do for tomorrow. That why i love long weekends.

I was feeling pretty good until YP broke the news to me, and in that instant, I feel freaking devastated. It's like, my heart's bleeding, cause I can't imagine this kind of things to happen to friends I know. God, please heal him!

Yes, I might be unfortunate, but there are people out there who ae worse off than me, and they are not even complaining, some of them live every single day as their last, striving and fighting hard for themselves. man, I feel like a loser, often i used look at things from my own perspective, look at my own life, and think how unfair and twisted it is, and all the rantings and grumbles, and all the emo-ing.

Fuck it, i'm just too selfish, it's ether that or i'm just having so much fun that i don't stop often enough to think, or to offer my hand to those who are in greater need. and even if i did, it just not enough.

I need to change, i need to find back my old self. in the midst of chasing after my own happiness, i have changed to someone i thought she would like, but i realised it's pointless, cause true beauty lies in the heart, and when you have that , it shines brighter than anything.

I need to make my heart shiny.

2010-03-30T12:26:00.001+08:00

woah, so it's been quite a while, after slacking, job hunting, hanging out, supper during wee hours of the morning, weekends fun, and with the most recent one being Jianxiong birthday celebration, I'm finally working, basically as customer service cum admin assistant for courier services, and though the pay's not fantastic, i guess it'still alright cause the working's environment's quite okay, with helpful people guiding me and I'm almost screwed up this morning. I'm still getting used to the fast pace, multi-tasking, and remaining calm and alert throughout.

So wish me luck, cause I should be hanging around for quite a bit, unless I'm been shown the door. good thing louis 's working together with me and we have to take long bus ride to our workplace everyday.

it's only the second day of work, and I've working quite a bit, one reason's to earn more cause my salary is based on hours clocked, but the main reason is to keep myself occupied, and get you out of my mind. i want to give up, and I'm dead serious this time. i don't want see myself clinging on to that glimmer of false hope, perhaps? and also to make things easier for you.

Ah, I just received a letter from nyp, informing me about the graduation ceremony in May, along with the offical academic transcript. it's just amazing how three years pass so quickly, and the whole journey, albeit for some slights hiccups and unpleasant experiences, was indeed a rewarding one =) Then again, the graduation ceremony might well clash with my getaway to KL from the 13th to 15 May. Man, I'm seriously looking forward to it. Kudous to all for cooperating, and especially to zewei and wenbin for handling the numerous change of plans and locations due to restricted budget and unforeseen circumstances, and this trip also serves as a reminder to why I should work hard and save up more money!

I will only be applying for uni next year, or the year after next, whereby the latter should be the more likely choice, so now its me versus work with the reward being money! i still can't imagine how I'm gonna survive 2 years of working, but for now, i just take one tiny step at a time.

Thurs gonna celebrate Zh's bday at TIMBRE, the one near the Clarke quay one, and you know what, friday, being a Good friday, literally, means I need not report for work, and this gives me an excuse to get drunk. Opps.

I guess this isn't really a long update, and yes, no photos makes my blog look so plain and boring.

I think love is when you know the person you love is being loved, and this makes you want feel love in a way, and right now, i'm having this bitter sweet feeling, but it doesn't matter, cause you are happy, so I am happy and i want to make working happy for me too!

Cheers. i 'll be back with photos, and i hope i'd make my words count this time ^^

2010-03-15T01:36:00.002+08:00

I'd hadn't had such a relaxing week prior to this particular week. I quitted the temp job, cause its kind of boring and far, I aint so sure either. Anyway, this week has been real good,though I'm still not getting enough sleep.

Mahjong sessions at gene, yuquan and zewei house. It was fun, so i lost a bit of money, but mahjong is fun cause you are using ur brain and having fun at the same time. Wu tai ftw! Haha.

We discussed about the overseas trip to may, and sadly, Bangkok's no longer in our agenda due to political tension there. We are now pondering on Hongkong, or more likely, Malaysia,langkawi or KL. Played l4D2 and caught Jack neo movie on friday night, It was kinda funny, but the story plot is lame, and predictable. Jack's scandal has been causing such a stir, and uproar, that just make me feel saddened at the typical Singaporeans's reactions to this matter. People mocking and condemning Jack Neo and stuffs. No doubt he's in the wrong, but come on, who doesn't make mistakes,we are no siants, the deed was alraedy committed, so what's more important is learning your lessons and move on with life. If Jack neo's just a normal guy with normal income, status and everything, who would seriously give a damn?! Give him a break and let's mind our own business yeah.

Yest went out with phllip and khristine! We chatted for hours, talking about a lot of stuffs. Haha! Had a impromptu meet up with zh at his hse, and waited for kel to knocked off from work before heading down to jalan kuyu for supper! Reached home at 3am.

Woke up late today,Used com and stuffs before meeting up with wenbin and shuhuan at my hse downstairs before heading for wb's hse. My last vist to wb's place was more than 3 years ago. Wb's newphew and niece are so adorable, they just simply lit up a smile on my face, and distracted me from my work. Seeing them reminds me of my childhood memories, carefree and bubbly. Heh!

Tomorrow gona meet louis to start our job hunting! Wish me luck! I need a job, for income, and to appease my nagging parents. I missed out on N and NTU uni applications and so i'm onlyleft with SMU. Gg!

One step at a time, I guess.

2010-02-25T00:37:00.002+08:00

Today was pretty cool, though the weather has kinda spoil it. The sun has not been doing earthlings favours. I was late and made hoemun waited quitea bit, so we went
-Collect Hoemun Xbox at Funuan IT mall
-Had pepper lunch at the kopitiam
-Check out some games at Sim Lim. Oh, we saw jiaying and her bf, Haha, kelvin was so stunned!
- Soccer training at farrer park. Thanks to kel and hoemun for waiting for me, if not I would have a lonely dinner.
- Dinner at Uncle Sam's claypot.

Work starting in about 9 hours time. I'm still not into the mood, and apparently, my work scope changed again. I loathe the idea of working without people I know, and I'll be working from 10am to 10 pm on Friday. Gg! Friday's usually night out, fun, and chilling out for me =(
That what you need to sacrifice for money. I need some quick buck. I get sad whenever I check my existing bank balance slowly depleting after each cash withdrawal transaction. Long and lonely two days coming up, at least it keeps me occupied. I should be heading down to Cheng Lip's house tomorrow night, at bukit batok.
Oh, Hoe mun might be joining me from monday onwards, so at least i'll have some company.

No more lazing on bed, computer games, stoning, and doing random stuffs.

I'm still undecided. I'm still a bit lost. What should I do?

2010-02-24T12:59:00.000+08:00

I've a lot of stuffs to post, but I'm rushing for time, cause I'm going out soon.
Let's see. I be meeting hoe mun at compass point at 1, met kel at cityhall, go makan, then acc hoe mun down to get his XBOX.

6 plus need head down to Farrer Park for soccer training cause there's match on Sunday at Chinese gardens.

Yest kel and me slack at hoe mun house from noon till 12 midnight. Played some dota matches, fifa and crapping.

CNY visits to poly mates' houses were cool, we visited like 7 houses in 13 hours, i believe. Tiring, but fun. hongbaosss, food, laughter, and gambling. Opps, i lost a substantial amount, but its all play and forget.

Ohh, Forbes called me ask me to work for them . Was supposed to do some telephone surveys initially, but they called me just now and asked me to do data validation and some admin stuffs. it's 6 bucks per hour, 9 to 6pm, but tomorrow I'll be s tarting work at 10. It's at international plaza, TP. Still, I need a full time job soon, and i was supposed to apply for uni at hoe mun's hse yest, maybe ntu or smu, but i can't find my transcript, and i found it on my table last night -.-

I guess i'll be busy after today, and hoe mun just called me to see whr I'm at, and I'm still blogging. I'm outta here.

2010-02-19T03:05:00.002+08:00

Look at the time now! And you know what, I only slept 2 hours yesterday, from 5 to 7am. Usually, I'll be feeling super shagged by now, and irritable, but I'm not, cause in a few more, I shall be PARTY-ING!! Time really , really flies. Three years just pass like that! Zoom! zoom! I have a lot of things to update, But i'm turning in soon!!

CNY was pretty cool, in a way, cause got to meet up with friends. Went Janice's hse on chu shan, played blackjack, Mahjoing, then went peter house's for steamboat! It was a spread, lots of food, but I feel kinda bad cause I can't finish up all the food. I was about to went home after that but had a impromptu mee up with gene and bin at Hougang instead. Acc-ed gene to makan and waited for Bin before we played 3 man plus one noob player/noob for L4D2 normal mode! Cleared first map within 30 minutes. Claered last map in about 45 Minutes, both games cleared with their maiden try ^^ Train-ed back to sengkang, and had quite a chat with wb. Mortals troubled by the affairs of the hearts..

I must plan, plan, plan! Plan to work, work to plan! At least I'd know I tried! Okay man, Tomorrow is final presentations, and I hope hoe mun remembers to bring empty discs. Photo- taking spree tmr, and lunch with lab's DTs =) PARTY AFTER 1830!! LETSSS BRING THE HOUSE DOWN YO!!! I'm unusually high right now. You seldom see me high, but now you do! I CAN"T WAIT! GOOD NIGHT COMING UP =D Ohm and good luck for those mugging for their poly semesters exams o any exams/projects/major assignments. ADD OIL PEOOPLEEE! I'll be back with photos, I promise! WHEEE!

2010-02-14T23:55:00.004+08:00

I realised this like my 70th post?! I thought I blogged more than that.

First off , HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR and Valentine's Day.

As i'm typing, I'm envious of all the couples having their" er ren shi jie" HAHA. CHU YI! HUAAATTT AH =D

Anyway, I received an sms from a churchmate earlier, and he said Valentine Day and CNY falling on the same days happens once every 57 years. Wow! If that's true, I won't live to see it again. So today's supposed to a special day, but I've rot at home throughout the day. Aw! so sad..

I planned to finish up my FYP, but I found out I didn't even transferred my work from the sch com cause I lost my thumb drive, so I can't do my work. Blur me! I don't even have the required software cause my the acer service staffs changed an entirely new hard disk for my lappy. Then again, I'm just too plain lazy. I need some motivation! Someone give me please?

I spent my day playing dota, fb-ing, youtubing, tv-ing. Today was just so boring! Oh man, and I was like ficing my WLM the whole day, tried all sorts of debugging, installing, uninstalling, re- instilling, changing registry, but failed. I am using pidgin messenger now. It's not too bad, I guess

Alright, a short recap about yesterday. Reunion lunch/dinner was good. It's not really about the spread or feast if you want to call it, It more about sitting down as a family, enjoying the cosy and warm kind of family I rarely experienced, cause everyone's just too busy, especially with elder my bro serving his nation now. Met Louis and went down bugis o meet his bro who want to do some last min CNY's shopping. Bugis street was packed as usual Bought a short-sleeve shirt. Hmm, eye candies around though. HAHA! Oh, I fixed my watch as well, cause it was too big for me, not anymore =) More than two years and it's still in tip-top working condition.

Let's see, Tomorrow, I'll be heading over to my grandma's house, and that means HONGGBBAOS!!

It's Cny, but I 've no idea why you are sad. I wanted to ask, but I don't know if you want tell me about it. You tell me, I'll lend you my ear. If you need me, I lend you my shoulder. One moment you seem okay, next moment you are not. Tell me what I need to do. Evil people exists, but there are still plenty of good people around, so chin up. Ming tian hui geng hao ^^

I need a gateway, but first I need money.

2010-02-13T00:49:00.001+08:00

I typed one whole chunk of stuffs last week, and closed the notepad file before publishing the post.Zz! So I make it quick here.

It's the eve of chinese new year already, and that I'm approaching the final week of my FYP.My project is almost done, just left with the user manual and AES website, and report. Thanks to kelvin for helping me! ^^

My supervisor asked me if I want to come back to work as DT after graduation, for a year, to help out with the projects. The pay is pretty good, close to 2k a month, but it's gonna be stressful for sure. However, I pretty much suck at programming and designing. On the other hand, I ecould actually get to see her around in school. Argh, what should I do?

Anyway, open assessment was done. I feel it's a waste of time wearing formal, cause there were so few lecturers assessing us. I just hope I can get a B for my FYP, A's a bonus, though that could actually means I could, perhaps, get in some uni course.

So many choices to make, so little time.

Sometimes, It's hard to picture out the future, cause I find it hard even handling current stuffs. I have so many stuffs to share with you, but.. Oh well! let's just put this aside.

At least, my laptop's back from Jurong. It's time to enjoy CNY, new year, money, new start. Go go go!

I've become so dark that my friends say that I look like an Indian!!

2010-01-18T00:33:00.002+08:00

It's has been a mixed week. I've never felt such strong emotional mood swings in a long while. You just inconveniently come across my mind throughout the week, be it me doing my FYP, stoning, and even gaming.

Anyway, I've gotten a new spects, but few people actually noticed it. I wanted to try out contract lenses, but on second thoughts, I find it too much of a hassle, perhaps next time, so THANKS to Hoe mun and kelvin accompany me to make/collect the spects, and also trying to cheer up.

As usual, the mundane FYP's driving me crazy. just a quite intro. I'm doing on exploring Singapore using Augmented Reality. Basically, I've to create models of the various landmarks along the mariana area,( fullerton hotel, merlion, ) and then import them in a software call linceo, collabrate the models with webcam and display the augmented reality effects. I'm done with the mini assessment, and some lecturers don't really fancy modeling, but oh well, I don't blame them cause I'm not a fan of modeling either.

I owe kelvin infinite thanks and favors for helping me with the models, big time! If not mayeb I'll be cursing at one corner right and screwing myself for nuts. I think I shall upload some photos of my project soon, if time premits.

Friday night was mahjoing-ing at Alex's house with kel and val. So I lost around 12 bucks and val was the biggest winner. Nice condo, just right besides Guilin Park. The scenery is breathtaking and of course, fresh air. Thanks To Alex for giving all of us a lift home, considering the distance of bukit gombak and sengkang.

Yest was a busy day. Went for soccer meeting at around 9 plus at ACCESS, then went to have a short kick about at he nearby street soccer court. We proceeded to the staff room area to slack, then went up for lunch. Chat with some friends whom I haven't seen in a while, and met a couple of new friends too. Next up was the TM first toastmaster session for the year. It was an interesting experience and I'm still complementing if I should join. The session ended later than expected, and so I made my way down to clarke quay to meet Juilet's students, namely, Lance, Rachel and Timothy. Nice and friendly bunch of peeps.

Went to Pitstop for dinner and board games. Some really interesting games, but I can't rememberered the names of those games except for the monopoly style card game. We played like, 4 games in four hours, including dinner and crapping, and laughter and photos and most importantly, fun! We left at 10pm and Thanks for the treat!

So I headed back to sengkang and met up with Louis. We lived like two blocks way from each other but I seldom bang into him, so as usual, men' talk, and what can two big men talk about? Money, love and lust?? LOL, kidding, but it's true for the first two points I mentioned. Chit chat and share some problems and consoling each other. It's good to let whatever that's troubling you deep inside you out, any form of release that helps, and I guess I felt better.

Today wasn't a good day. Woke up at 8am, with like 5 hours of sleep only, and realised that we aint meeting for soccer anymore, can't went back to sleep, and slacked all the way till evening time and met kel for dinner at Bishan. Pizza hut, 5 course meal was not too bad. Wanted to get some new clothes but alas, none to my liking.

I need sleep badly, Weekends are always packed, with no ample time for rest, and I'm feeling the Mondays blues already, like NOW! 5 more weeks and I'll be a free man from FYP.
I need to plan and prioritize.

People suffer from the wrath of nature. Haitian earthquake took away like 200.00 lives and counting, with despicable looters rubbing salts to the wounds.
God, please bring comfort and blessing to these people who're suffering out there.

Maybe its a timely reminder that I should count my blessings and stop ranting so much.

Week 8/12, here I come!

2010-01-11T01:04:00.000+08:00

I've reached the point of my life when I have to make BIG decisions, possibly life-changing decisions. I'm tired and sick of the same old cycle going round and round. It's always hurts me, then sometimes happens that gets my hope up again, den back to square one.

Fear of rejection, of uncertainties, of incapability, of loss. Every night, these fears engulf and are slowly overwhelming me. Maybe, I'll be numb to love, a word that might just slowly ceased to exist in my dictionary.

At least a few things are certain,

-work hard for FYP( try to increase GPA)
- get a FT job for the next two and a half years
- save $$$ ( for local/ private uni or maybe oversea uni)

CNY's coming, but I' aint in the festive mood jusy yet. Its gona be 7/12 of FYP. I need to buck up Tomorrow need to choing for my powerpoint slides and report. zZ

Ah, good luck for those taking olev results.

They say all is fair in love and war, but let me tell you, Iam alraedy fighting a losing war even since the day i was born.

I want to be with you, but you won't want to be with me cause its too late, too tough, too sucky.

Insomina beckons.

I need to get my mind off things, I WANT A HOLIDAY!!!

2010-01-06T23:40:00.002+08:00

Six days into the new year, not too bad. Yest night went to celebrate CG birthday! He damn old liao, no more big1 in front! Dinner + cake nearly killed me, headed down to Clinic to drink. Shots didn't feel like shot at all, no kick! Pictures are not up on facebook yet, so yeah.. and Dad said I 'm always not home for dinner.

Went for Nus open house today, food was not bad, talks were okay but only the faculty of arts and social sciences interests me really, yet the irony is that it's in no way related to what i'm studying right now. I ran into Juilet too. Ahhahha! My GPA's too low, so I shall sleep earlier tonight.

FYP sucks, in a way, I'm just too lazy, I don't find the motivation to work. Oh well, I am supposed to help out with the open house, free red shirt, yay! and so I went home for dinner today.

Time for...

New year resolutions ( I know it's late, but better late than never)

1) Graduate from NYP
2) You to be happpy
3) Friends, families, people whom I care to be happy
4) Get a full time job after graduation.( Tough, but I don't sem to have much choices)
5) Gain weight
6) Focus on right things

That's about all for now. Oh yeah, I think my temper's kinda bad for the past wek, I know why, but I can't help it either. Only God knows when I'll be seeing you again.

Tomorrow is a long day, and here's performance on sat. My bed's calling for me.

2010-01-01T23:47:00.001+08:00

Hellooo! As usual, I've not been updating on a regular basis. I'm just so lazy, opps.

First day of 2010. Let's do it.

2009 has been awesome, really. Let's ee.

Trip to Genting was one of the best, friday nights out, new friends, , school, soccer, projects..

and YOU.. Heh, just a few minutes will do too.

Up and downs, and 2009 is gone, but the memories will still remain.

I'm wondering how my resolutions for 2009, guess some of them weren't achieved, maybe they were just too difficult.

Christmas this year was different from previous years. Special! Morning went out buy gifts for Christmas gift exchanges and stuffs. Evening, training down to westmall to find Meiping! Ahhahhaha!

She passed me a card, Oh man. It 's really nice, I gotta show it here!

Front view of the card

Back view of the card

Meiping, your handwriting is super unique la, oh and I love cute drawings. Thanks! Simplicity is the best! Its what from the heart that counts. I love it! =)

Met shawn at westmall after that, then went to the koufu there, try the western food. It's really good. hahhaha, the soup's deceiving. Went back down to PreciousThots, cause we want buy presents for khris as she's recovering from a back operation. Bought the gifts, then met hoe mun and training back home.

Sat went for soccer training in the morning, Then met up with poly mates in the evening. It was supposed to be a class gathering, but in the end, only have seven people, nvm, It was still pretty fun, Ate at Hans at Marina square, went to Esplandane for gift exchange, I kenna kelvin gift. HAHHAHHAHHA. Kenny went off first to meet friends, then we went to dobhy guat and wanted play lan, but it was full, went to paridise centre to try our luck, so many lan shops but still full. Went to Mac, and chill, then walked to the Rocher beancurd. Man, It really good, and its packed with people, even when its after 12 midnight. Went to play pool, and listened to nice chi songs there. Zhiyong treated us beer, one bottle each. It was really bitter, Lol, I only managed to finish 3 quarters of it.

It was like 2plus in the morning when this pic was taken! Know which present is mine? hohoho!
Took nightrider back.

Woke up at 9 the following morning, slept only 4 hours. Gg! Met Wenbin for haircut, den trained down to hougang meet gene, yuquan and weechin and had KFC for lunch. Played 4 hours plus of lan! Oh my. Left4Dead Verus and counter strike. Had western for dinner and then headed over to gene house for mahjiong, and catch the Arsenal veruusss Aston villa match 3-0!! Woots!

FYP again on monday. Sucks big time!! hahhahhhah! Week 5/12 over.

New year eve, long long day! went scholl for FYP in the morning =( then trained down with kel, zh, Phllip, Cheng Lip to Orchard to acc Phllip cause he need repair his phone again. Trained down to Novena, and met Cheng Lip's bro. Had exp but filling chicken rice at velocity, den acc Cheng woon buy his sports shoes at phllip mum's workplace. Headed to monster ramen to acc Cheng woon makan, and watch Chenglip reformat to Windows 7! I'm gonna reformat my lappy to Windows 7 soon! Poor kel kenna from all of us! It was great when you are with one whole bunch of funny peeps!! Train-ed down to causeway, went up timezone to watch the Pro bros in action in some shooting game. Really zai. Met up with shawn and had dinner at Mos.

The rest went off and so shawn was hungry still, and we went to toast box, then we went sat at some open space, talk and enjoy the breeze. hahhahhahha! and finally, Countdown!! 2010!!!
Managed to see fireworks from the mrt platform. Beautifull.

Today slack at home, use com, wtach tv, damnn sian. zz. First day of 2010 like that fly past luh.

Woah, such a long post!

New year, new start let's go! Let's all be happy and look forward to 2010! hehehheheh ^^

ROAARRRR!!!!! I promised to update more! hahhahha!

2009-11-25T23:46:00.007+08:00

Tomorrow's my last day of attachment at Yuuzoo. The place's accessible, with great environment, friendly colleagues and fellow interns. Work has been pretty simple, I ask I'm really lucky to get posted to this company ^.^ All these plus points made daily routine a lot less boring. =) What more can I ask for? Its a short but great time!

Man, i just bought L4D2, along with posters, a year long of magazines FOC, and a free membership card with some benefits! I can't wait to whip those zombies' asses and beat the shit out of them! woohhh. More weapons, better graphics, more challenging and of course, New Infected that adds to the fun.

I shall need L4d2 to relieve some of the stress I'll be experiencing after this week.

Let's see, my schedule for the next few days are a bit tight.

Tommorrow:

Need to finish my wk 10, 11 and 12 reports
Need to finish the given task.
Lunch with fellow colleagues and interns
Steamboat with fellow interns.

Overall, 2 and a half months at Yuuzoo was a good experience. Sometimes, all of us have this feeling work's means finishing tasks asap and everyday seems to be the same, but i realised that pacing yourself and prioritising stuffs are more important. A BIG THANKS to ALL my colleagues, supervisors and fellow interns, ahahahha, to put it simply, my new friends ^.^

Friday is a public holiday, probably heading down to IT show with shawn and some poly mates, I need to get headphones! I need get some new clothes also. lol.

Sat is the day for FOOTBALL FANS out there, Its RM vs Barca, Arsenal vs Chelsea, Liverpool Vs Everton. I shall catch those highly anticipated derby match at someone's house, zh? Louis? Anyone?

Sunday, I'll heading down to gene's workplace for lunch cum Louis/YQ birthday celebrations.

AWWW , I'm fully booked for this week =( HAHAHHAHA!

and..... after all the FUN...
....
....
....

Monday, I'll be back in school for the dreaded FYP. Sigh! I wonder what's in store for me. ( okay,I know this is anti-climax)

Oh well, I shall cast it aside for now, cause

ITS TIME TO PARTY!!!
QUIT TALKING ABOUT SCHOOL YEAH!

P.s : Meiping, this is for you, girl! Hope you are feeling a lot better le. Be Happy, yeah,? and all the things that follow 'll flow along =)) If you are happy and you know it, then clap your hands! *clap! clap!* Hahhahaha! ^.^

2009-11-17T23:57:00.003+08:00

I still remember..

Approx 888 days ago

That spot I first saw you,
Our first eye contact,
Our first conversation
Your first message,
first and every SMS,

You are the first girl I love,
Even If I'm only a friend to you,
I can't make a clean break,
cause you always on my mind.
An one way love traffic?
By all means then.
It doesn't matter.
I can't forsee the future,
But I can promise
Whatever happens,
I'll be there for you,
Whenever you need me.

2009-11-10T17:25:00.005+08:00

Yes, yes, I know I haven been blogging for quite a while, Its not like I don't want to, Its just that I have no mood for it due to a particular reason, which I'll elaborate right at the end. In addition, I've been rather busy at work,I just finished downloading AND uploading 2000 wallpapers into the server, gosh, Its boring and tiring cause was down with flu last week and now I'm down with flu + cough, lucky I am doing this with the help of a fellow interns, if not God knows when i'm gonna finish. Its simple work through, Need not rack my brain, just repeating a few simple steps, and to stay focus , so as not to upload the wrong images. Oh yeah, Its gets pretty annoying when the servers lags and I get kicked out once in a while. On a bright note, My October pay's is in, according to my colleagues, I have not yet updated my bank book, but it should be around 450++. I'm back to slacking for now whilst waiting for new tasks.

Christmas Lightup performance was awesome, my part was real easy to play, but it's not about me, its about how the whole team plays, the rhythm, timing, accuracy. It was pretty much there, an addition of a few more mikes would have made it better. Nevertheless, It was great efort put in by the whole Guitar Ensemble, esp the instructors who fork out time during their precious weekends to guide us through the preparations and rehearsals, and of course, not forgetting Sparkz with those wonderful songs, and it was Jazzkids, I believe, for the dance, in an attempt to hype up the crowd

The crowd was no too bad, there were many curious onlookers helpers, From BB, community chest, beneficiaries and etc. Still, It was kind of overwhelming to stay right beside the President, greeting him with a handshake, exchanging a few words, and staying right beside him for a group photo!It was a pleasure performing for him and all the audience. Lucky Peter and me!I guess all of us were feeling pretty much honored. haha! We are weak as individuals, but made strong as we work as a team. Indeed, these kinds of activities add spice and insights and add twist to a usual typical night. It was an invaluable experience.

Work made me realise how precious Friday nights and weekends are, Friday nights was the usual small gathering among a handful of us, just catching up with each others and updating about our week over dinner. It was usually followed by playing lan for about an hour or two.

Steamboat a couple of weeks ago was good, affordable price, more than edible food and eye candies.

I'm not angry, nor sad. I'm just disappointed, or maybe I should have seen it coming, It always end with that kind of ending. With you, It's as if I'm on a roller coaster ride, Up and down, high and low, before coming to a premature ending. After an indefinite period of time, it as if another ride starts, maybe just longer this time more sharps turns that brings about more thrill and excitement , but like a typical roller coaster ride, it has to stop eventually, it has gotta end cause whatever I do, whatever I said, It seems like it helped you, but its definitely not the case, and time and above I'm always prove right. Its not your fault, cause maybe you are not even aware, or you are just ignoring, It doesn't matter. I took the ride, I bear the consequences, Good luck, have fun. This time I shall end the ride before the rides ends on me.

I'm clueless, sometimes It really hard to read your mind, sometimes you are just not being real in front of me. Maybe I've been trying too hard, maybe it just pointless, maybe I'm raeding to much into a trivial matter
all I know is If you happy,I'm happy too. Maybe when you reading this, You won't even know I'm actually referring to you, oh well, maybe its better this way, You have your prince charming, I have my own bridge to cross. I'll still prepare the stuffs we promise each other, You said you won't forget, we shall see, maybe I'll be prove right once again.

Once a friend,always a friend. I know you have a lot of friends, but I'll still be there for you whenever you need me. It my principle to help friends when they are in need, moreover, when that person is You.

Woah, I feel better after blogging this out, sounds emo huh? Don't worry, I'll be back to my usual self real soon

What kills you, makes you stronger.
I kill love before it kills me.
The ride is rough, but the experience's precious.
I think and think, and I'm not worthy of you love.
I'm outta here.

2009-10-22T17:35:00.004+08:00

Been quite a few since I last updated. Attachment's well past the halfway mark, about five more weeks to go!

I've been thinking quite a bit for the past few weeks, but I just can't, There always something that reminds me of you, every single time.

Anyway, here's something I came across today. You should seriously check this out, Yeah yeah, Its not just their looks but their voices as well! The lyrics are great too.

I'm in love with them, eh, I mean the Song, and their voices, and esp their EYES!

I am officially missing you.

2009-10-09T15:21:00.002+08:00

It's another Friday again. This morning, my elder bro officially enlisted in SAF to be a full time NS men for 2 years, more or less. I am sure these two years'll provide him with invaluable experiences and lessons, I won't be seeing him for at least two weeks, so hope he will look forward to army life, even if he don't like it.

Alright, so I got my September allowance a couple of days ago, ahhahhahha, anyway, its not about the money. Oh well, There's nothing much for me to do, so I have tried everything to kill time, youtube, soccer news, facebook, videos, movies, reading blogs, stoning, basically anything that comes to my mind, that can help me make time seemingly faster

and so I did this in about half an hour time, LOL. okay okay, no need you to tell me, I know its ugly, I just wanna put up for fun.

Anyway, there's one strange thing with the pic, hahhahhahha, see if you guys can spot it =)

Sigh, this week has been rather chaotic, I can't wait for 6pm. Have a great weekend!

2009-10-04T23:45:00.001+08:00

Do you know Sunday's actually the first day of the week? On second thoughts, I'm not too sure. ahhahhhaha! Gunners just handed blackburn a 6-2thrashing for fans at the Emirates to witness it live, and for me, It just a good week waiting for me, i hope. Both of the gunners I have in my squad were on target just now so I am pleased, and the captain leads by example. Breathtaking performance! Now it just remaining about focused and not to cut slack after the international break. Tmr is back to boring routine again, work, work and work.. Yest quite sad cause can't see the full moon due to the rain before that, resulting in clouds covering the moon =(
362 days and counting to the next children day. At times, i wished i can be a kid forever,

just cry and you will be feed
just smile and you will be loved
just crawl and you will be praised
just laugh and you will be hugged

Its a long time but I'll wait.

Oh, I just found an new eye candy! Heh! Thanks to zh! She looks just like dawn yeoh! hohoho!!! I LOVE CUTE BABES with sweet voice and big eyes, *highs* I am like on ecstasy.

I know its random, but anyone wants go kite flying this coming Sunday? I am serious.

2009-10-02T17:24:00.002+08:00

TGIF!!! I love Friday nights!! I'm already into the fourth wee of my internship,its so fast, and that also means there is EPL action tmr, and i can catch Gunners in action.

Theo walcott is back. his speed is essential to fast paced counter attacking moves. I just hope that he doesn't get himself injured again, Keep it and the games'll come, and the crosses will get better. RVP's in the form of his life now, and the gunners are up against Blackburn at the Emirates, so anything less than a win is unacceptable, still, i reckon it will be a physical game.

Fann and Christopher tied the knot a couple of days ago, and it was broadcast live, hahahha, nice ambiance, food, classy, romantic, fun, everything is there, Hope they will have a blissful marriage, and oh, Dawn Yeoh is so cute, and hot! hahhahhaha! I love her eyes! I think i am nuts! Weekends is here, tmr gonna be a packed day.

2009-10-01T17:58:00.000+08:00

I wonder, and I wonder and I still could not draw a conclusion.

Every single day, there are
People killing, people dying,
But how can humans stop the wrath of a natural disaster

There’s absolutely no reason for natural disasters that just strike and kills people. On Wednesday, there was a7 .6 magnitude earthquake that hit Padang city, Sumatra island, in Indonesia . More than 1000 people were feared dead and many, many others trapped within the rubbles. The aftermath of the earthquake left people homeless, helpless, and sent their world crashing down. Buildings collapsed in a heap. What once was a beautiful place, was left in ruins again. Money is needed for rescue operations, rebuilding of home and shelter of these people. Children losing their loved ones, family losing their breadwinner, it just tragic, all lost in a 10 minutes (or less) spell. Natural disaster come and go, not before destroying everything in its path. I am grateful I am living in SG, all we feel physically was the tumors of the quake, but I my hearts feels for the people there. Fit was tsunami, now these. There seems to be a rising number of natural disasters that occurs yearly, floods, typhoons, earthquake just come anytime, and compounded misery to the lives of people, so do cherish every loved ones of yours, don't neglect or take them for granted, causes life at times, makes a mockery of people, the only comfort from all these, is that it makes us stronger, it makes us ponder about life, and make us realise how precious life is. All these, in short makes us mature.

God, I don't understand why , but please protect and bless those people over there.

Right now, I am basically slacking at my desk, and I simply have so much time, to do a bit of reflection and soul searching. Those setback I encountered, the amount of pain is nothing, compared to what people over at sumatra island are experiencing. I can't deny I put myself first, tell me who don't, maybe not all, but definitely most of the time. I just give this simple example.

Yesterday at 6.30 I was walking along the pathway from EWL to NEL o take the train, it was peak hour people don't care, they just want to get to their destination fast, I was shoved at least 5 times, and some idiotic bugger just stare at me and out came the"tsk" sound from her mouth when i was just trying to walk past her, 2 secs was deemed too long for her. I seriously don't now what the rush for, last train is at 6.35pm? I can't stand these kind of stupid, selfish people who only think about themselves. Its pathetic. You are seen as an eyesore and get on hei nerves just because you block their way for that 2 secs while trying to walk across them?! what logic is that, sheesh.

At least tomorrow is Friday, and a night to enjoy with my friends. Oh, and mid autumn festival is coming! mooncakes time. Life goes on, and i'm knocking off from work like now.

2009-09-28T17:50:00.001+08:00

I'm back. results are out, its just average, didn't improve, in fact it went down just a tiny bit, but I am not disappointed, okay, maybe just a tiny bit, but oh well, I just maintain to keep my gpa above 3. Oh, congratz to us those who did well =) , and to those who didn't do so well, don't be disheartened. I am here to give you peeps a good piece of news, YOU NEEEDD not stay up throughout the NIGHT and mug like shit just to see that damn grade in the stupid server that makes you wait for don’t know how long. Brain cells can be better used, seriously. Woot, internship, FYP (vice-versa) and I'll be out of NYP.

I been thinking about the course I’ve chosen, and the future job prospects, and no doubt I am kind of worried, but I have no regrets, because I mad a lot of FRIENDS, of course there some frequent conflicts here and there, but that's part and parcel of life. Friends brighten up your days, friends encourage you and give wise advices, and in short friends are those who are there when you need the most! I always believe the friends I've made are not just by mere coincides, but its by fate, of courses circumstances thereafter will impact in one way or another, it just about the efforts you put in the forging of that particular friendship. Poly days are just too fast paced, and I’m finally left with 2 months of Internship and then FYP!

Yest went work with Louis, lol who works on Sunday seriously, esp if you have already spent all your weekdays working. and slept at 4am on Saturday, when you know you have to work on Sunday morning. and so after watching Fulhum vs Arsenal at Louis house at like 12 midnight, and let at 3, and meeting again like at 9.30 which is like 6 hours. At least I am rewarded with a Gunner win, albeit by real luck, and a solid pair of hands in between the post.

Louis and me started work at 12 noon, and its pretty slack, and I was fatigued, and was mostly stoning away, instead of stoning instead of focusing on what I am supposed to do, Knocked of from work at 6pm, and meet up with Louis's gf a bugis mrt an train-ed down to Tamp, Century Square food junction for dinner, ahahhahhah, I like one damn BIG lightblub, lol, but yeah, they nice and friendly peeps to hang out with, chat quite a bit ovr dinner, so I guess once in a while, its okay. Poor louis kenna suan by his gf and me, opps. These few weekends was mainly playing LAAN, and spotting eye candies with friends, that the problem when you hang out with all the single guys. hahhahhha! hence, a change once in a while is not too bad, so I went back home after dinner at tamp, and start gaming on my lappy. My laptop misses me and vice versa cause I only bring her home on fri night, while she spend her lonely weekdays on my desk at my workplace, cause I find it a hassle to bring my lappy to and fro from my workplace every, single day =(

Speaking of work, I wonder when i'm gonna get this month allowance, sigh. Still, work is really slack for me, and I'm basically waiting for time to pass everyday, because I'm not assigned any tasks, so I am doing my own things all the time.

Oh, and there is these funny incident which happened on sat night, while I was on my way to louis hse to catch the arsenal game, while waiting for the green men at he road junction, this 50 plus aunt came up to me while I was listening to the music via my headset, and this how the 1 min convo roughly went

Aunt: *starting intently at me*
Me: *turns away and continues to reply my sms*
Aunt: talks to me in some dialect language, while gesturing
Me* took off my head set* and asked," You looking for which block? *in Chinese*(cause I thought she want to ask me for directions?
Aunt: * sense that I don’t understand dialect, den replies me in Chinese, "Nono, You are (some chinese name) right? What are you doing here?
Me: Huh? I think you mistaken me for someone else, I am not the person you just said.
Aunt: Really?? You really look like him? Den she asks me for my name.
Me: replies my name, smile and watches her walk away. AND I missed the green man during the short convo. LOL.

It's not the first time I'm associate with mistaken identity, ahhahhaha, a couple of months back, while I was on my way to school, there's this guy on bicycle who rode past me, stopped and grabbed my hands, and thought I was someone he knew, and asked me how I've been. That kind of took me by surprise, but at least it jolted me up from my half - sleeping mood that day. Hmmm, I also didn’t know why, but it seems like my friends don't encounter this randomness, so do I really resemble someone else, other than my twin bro, of course. It’s kind of bemusing really.

Enough said, I am about to knock off from work real soon, wheeee! Oh, and I think I am falling sick soon, have slight cough and bad flu, so friends outta reading his, do take care, and anyone has any sentimental songs that can like express the kind of feelings I’m having right now, please send me, I need some new songs!

2009-09-16T15:44:00.000+08:00

Been like don’t know how long since I had my last update, I’ll guess I do one now since I've the time. I'm into the second week of internship at a telecommunication /marketing company. hahaha. I've been tasked to handle some banner designs which I had completed yesterday, so I’m waiting for instruction, cfm must redo or edit most of the banner designs. So far so good, just that I feel lazy to get out of my bed every single morning, and the pay, oh no, I mean the allowance is not that great, but I guess I’d have to make do with it. The plus points are the working environment, nice colleagues, new friends and my work place is at town area, which means a lot of people, and ahem, candies!

Ah I nid do weekly report too -.- Seriously a waste of time, and results are out next week. Oh oh! 0e Kelvin G , his classmates and Kang Wei at Kangwei hse downstairs, to help Kelvin with his project on plants. Ah, and their teacher was taking quite a bit of picks too. It's always a good feeling to try something different; it gives you a different insight to life. Kelvin's friends are great peeps too.! hahhahah! and now there's this random thought that I can't even hold a candle to a plant, geez.

We are like people form two different worlds, I thought I know you well enough, guess I was wrong then, Its impossible, and it's not like I have no clue of that, and so I am keeping a distance from you, beside you never seem to know what I really want, and so the bottom line, its pointless, cause if it's not hurting you, its hurting me.

Time heals, time tells; time never cease to stop, and likewise Life! So MOVEEE ONNN! I know I can do it!

Enough of this emo shit, I can't wait for FRIII Night and the ever-so-long weekends! WO LAI LE!

2009-07-28T14:57:00.002+08:00

This week is one SHIT of a week, it's not even a week, it's just he second day of the week and all the crazy fucking nonsense is driving me crazy. I'm on 7 days MC, so you think yay, so song, i also want! screw it man! FUCK! Had a rude awakening from my hand phone, and gosh, it's the same guy, up to his same tricks, and DAMN!, IF you are not tired of your stupid actions and excuses, I am ! i am seriously sick and disgusted by them, IT like what , the TENTH time?I have my limits, don't push it, fucker! I've never ever felt so pissed before, and I am trying to suppress it, but i gotta blog it.

Being sicks doesn't help things a bit, I think I have to defy the doctor's order and come back to sch on thursday, I don't have a freaking choice, desperate? whatever you call it, I nid to clear my projects, and hiccups and obstacles are always in the way! Sickening.

So many complications, so many problems, what a great way to end my 18th year! geez.

2009-07-03T05:14:00.002+08:00

Hohoho,Extended one week term break.. Yay!? Nah!

My back's arching, my eyes are heavy, my ass 's nmb, but i feel ecstatic cause I'm almost done with all the freaking E-assignments which are seriously an eyesore. I am convinced that a normal school week would NEVER EVER demand so much work. Alright, enough of the rantings.

I'm catching a movie, on zh'slappy later, then maybe take bus going home sleep, if not means go meet kel later.

WOOOTS!!!! CHOING AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-05-28T02:23:00.000+08:00

Whoa, this is insane, just look at the time, and i can't even imagine myself waking up at 6.30am, just to make it for the 8am lessons this morning. If it's not for the quiz, i don't think I'll even be on time, at least i guess my consolation was that i managed to pass the quiz. Lessons were amazingly fast today, after which, I ate and rot in canteen before meeting up with the IM peeps at 2pm. We wanted to catch Angel And Demons initially but by the time we finished our lunch at Sumo house at amk , it was already 4.45pm , and the next available timeslot was at 7.45pm,and so we went to catch Night of the museum 2 instead, at amk Hub. It was a funny movie, but the storyline was kind of crappy.

Somehow, I just can't laugh out loud during he movie, i mean, yes, I did laugh out loud, but it just doesn't come out naturally. Argh, my mind is totally preoccupied by you. I have so much words which i wannna tell you, but i just can' do it. I don't want to overwhelm you, but after so long, all my efforts seems to be futile, every time when it seems so close, someone is always a step ahead of me, the books, the gifts, the date, everything.. maybe it was just not meant to be.

Man, i hate this kind of feeling, it just makes me feel flustered.

Ok, time to change a topic before I go crazy, It Barcelona Vs Manchester unite in like 30 minutes time from now. It the clash of the giants, the titans, i don't really care, all I know is it that two of the biggest clubs are clashing head on with each other to determine who's the best, of course it'll not be Arsenal, maybe next season.

I am just like the Gunners, when early sign of promise was shown, but at the end of the day, I always come home empty handed.

Only you can change the outcome, and I'm still waiting for your reply.

Alright, I'm outta here, Gotta rush down to Louis hse to watch the most anticipated match ever, I just wanna see beautiful football, and ah, the outcome of the match might well determine who gets the world Player of the year too!

It has been a crazy week, drinking, emo-ing, laughing, quizzes, postponed quiz, movies, you name it! ahahhhhahha, I need sleep!

P.S : My previous post was not the lyrics of any songs, It's about my love for you

2009-05-20T20:28:00.001+08:00

My Love For You

I didn't believe in love at first sight,
till the day I met you.
It was not just any any crush,
the feeling was different,
was strange,
yet sweet.
It was the feeling of love.

I was mesmerized by,
the sheer sight of you.
From your eyes,
your face,
your smile,
your voice.
Everything about you,
is just so beautiful.

Maybe it is just fate,
that you were there.
I only know that,
you totally blow my mind.

Throughout the ride,
I stole glances at you
Maybe you were oblivious to it,
but it doesn't matter,
cause ignorance is sheer bliss.

We were placed in the same team,
it was then I knew your name,
and it suits you perfectly.

Your cheerfulness,
your gentleness,
your outgoing and caring nature,
all these probably sums up my first impression of you.

I wanted to hold you,
look into your eyes,
and say I love you.
Maybe it was a moment of impulse,
but it did cross my mind.

When you talked to me,
I could heard my heart pounding,
it was like a rush of adrenaline,
that just surged through my veins.
It was only three days,
but to me, it was like eternity.

From then all, things progressed,
it was just online chats after chats.
When you were happy,
so was I.
When you were sad,
I shared you grief.

It was something like a ladder,
you and the top,
and I at the bottom,
and so, I tried to climb up,
one step at a time.

Then, it was the flurry exchanges of sms-es,
and so everything seemed to be going smoothly,
until fate decided to make a mockery out of me,
fancy me knowing that you actually have a boyfriend,
on your birthday.
It was devastating initially,
but I knew you would be happy,
and hence i had to move on.

Time heals all wounds,
and soon i thought that i had gotten over you,
but it was not to be.
Cause when you broke up with your boyfriend,
I knew that I was bleeding inside as well.
I wanted to comfort you,
console you,
but something was just holding me back.
Deep down I knew that,
I'm simply not worthy of your love,
I don't wanna be a burden to you.

It's almost gonna be two years,
since the day we first met each other.
Time indeed files,
and so you are attached again.

Your big day is just around the corner,
but I know you will be busy,
i just hope that you will,
spend that bit of your time with me.

Maybe you already knew that,
I'm in love with you.
Or maybe you will know now.
It only a matter of time,
before you'd figure it out too.

That's when the problem will arise,
cause you might avoid me,
if you realize I love you.

I am in a dilemma,
I don't wanna lose,
this precious friendship of ours,
yet i can't stop myself,
from falling in love,
with you.

That the irony of love, i suppose,
It's just so complicated.
You can make,
and break my day.
Nevertheless,
I 'll trade anything in the world,
just to see you smile, always.

Bottom line is,
I just want you to be happy,
that's all that matters.

2009-04-22T22:50:00.003+08:00

Yo! I just changed my blog song, so i thought I should just clear my tag board at the same time. . This morning, had to force myself to get out of bed at 6 plus, freaking shag..
When I stepped out of my house, My neighbor and his dog just behind me nia, the dog scared the shit out of me with the sudden barks cause I was locking the door at that time. Lol, at least the dog woke me up from my sleepiness. Heh, the dog quite cute, keep running over to me and lick my leg, so itchy sia.

First lecture of Network security was rather simple, It's basically an recap o the IS module already taken last sem. IT3873 tutorial was okay, cause the lecturer quite humorous, but I was kind of tired and restless. Met up with zh and hoe mun for lunch, saw ruth, and then aya and alvin at south canteen. Went home after lunch, and bumped into one of my classmate at the bus stop, and so we charted a bit, until my bus arrived, lol.

Went home and slacked after that. Did the IT3873 question on the discussion forum just now.

Woah, tmr's another long day, and I think I need to bring my lappy too -.-

2009-04-21T23:10:00.007+08:00

Heh, I'm back, I should blog more before all the projects and assignments come knocking on my door. School seem to a waste of time today, cause there were a lot of lectures today and i tried to absorb them, but little seems to go in. First lesson was at 11 at block S. It was a lab lesson but since the lecture would only be taught in the afternoon late, there was nothing much, just some simple introduction to the module, and some lame self- study.. I was just surfing the net and chatting on msn with Edward. Lol. During break time went to koufu meet up with zh, hoe mun, edward alvin for lunch. Saw Mon, Joan, Aya, and the IM peeps outside koufu and chat a bit. I didn't take anything for lunch, cause I didn't really have much appetite, maybe it's due to the really bad weather recently. The heat's just unbearable.

Speaking about weather, i just read the chinese paper a few minutes ago, and came across this article whereby USA scientists predict that in the year 2012 on 22/9 , a solar storm 'll strike Mother Earth, and a lot of people will perish on that very day A storm storm is basically a event where the whole earth would be plunged into darkness for an undefined period of time, and due to excessive use of electricity in our daily lives, there gonna be a so called big disaster.. The first solar storm was reported to occur in the year 1859, and that like freaking centuries ago. I have no idea how true the article is, but it's interesting and yet scary at the same time, but never say never.

Anyway, back to school, after lunch today, it was lectures all the way till 6pm and it was really boring, basically i was just playing single player L4D and clear the No Mercy Map in 44 mins. Then i played FIFA and got thrashed by bots.

Going home at sucks big time, cause i 've to miss 3 bus 159 and only managed to board the fourth one cause there are freaking lots of people waiting for 159 too, and the frequency is pathetic, 12 to 20 mins for the waiting intervial, and I got bitten on my left elbow by a brown spider-like insects while waiting for the bus, and it stings a bit, and my whole hand seem to go numb for quite some time. Zz..

ANYWAY, I'm so looking forward to tmr cause i only need to attend 4 hours of lessons and FOR ONCE in this week, i can go home BEFORE 6pm, however that also means my lessons 'll start at 8am. I 'm going sleep now if not i won't be able to get out of bed tmr.

Man, I really hope this sweet feeling lasts forever..

2009-04-20T22:57:00.005+08:00

Today was the first day of the new semster, had a sleepless night, I've no idea why. Anyway, I wanted to bring my lappy to school intiallity but changed my mind, simply because it's only the first day of school.

I was just on time. Stepped into the tutorial room at 9am sharp. Lecturer came in like two minutes later. First impression of the lecturer; Very serious, i would say his teaching is rather okay, just that I was down with a bout of flu and slight cough, and hence, wasn't really comfortable throughout the hour, but still managed to catch key points he mentioned and scribbled it down.

Immediately after that was lab session with the same lecturer, just that it was at a different location. We are supposed to do out a e-commerce website with the respective web application and database. It's a group work, with a maximum of 4 people in a team, but I can't understand why he insisted on NOT having 5 people in a team, it just an additional person in each team. Anyway, till now, i still have no idea whom I gonna team up with to do the project. There was early dismissal for break cause the first lab session was simple.

Sms-ed Cg and kenny to meet them up for lunch, Raj, fy, alvin and aya dropped by at mac too before heading for their lessons. Zh and hoe mun joined us for lunch too.

The next 4 hours of lectures was conducted by the same lecturer called Mr Chan Kim Kee ( Kinky), I think. LOL. Anyway, I think what he spoke has no relation to the module at all, maybe oni 5 mins was about how the module was going to be assessed, but he rest were just plain crap, but I think he's rather friendly, from the way he talks, i suppose.

NE 's simply just a waste of time, causing me to take bus home at the "Peak" hour. Damn!

I need to adapt fast, before I regret. Sigh, I hate it when almost all the days ended at 6pm.

Man, I missed, four days weeks, friends and especially her so, so so much!

2009-04-18T23:26:00.006+08:00

Heh, I think I should update now due to a number of reasons, ONE OF THEM IS CAUSE SCHOOL IS JUST ROUND THE CORNER! opps, I shall just say's I'm having mixed feelings over school. hahs, On one hand, I'm kinda excited about the specialization which I'l taking, and of course new classmates, but on he other hand, I know my poor brain cells is going to die after browsing some of the lectures notes on some of the modules i'll taking starting on mon, and hell, it's just chunks after chunks of information that just simply turns me off, pure memory work, i suppose.. Ah, and also the numerous projects. Okay, i shouldn't go on cause i know i've already spoil ur holiday mood =P

I have been caught up in the hype of FIFAONLINE2, FO2, simply the online version of fifa. It all started fom the tournment that I participated in about a month back, and yes, it was for experienced and the 200 bucks that was up for grabs, so i create a new account, and as excepted, I was hammered 3-0 by a random opponent, and so now U up trying to earn a lot of league points and also to build up a strong team so as to bask in glory the next time round, hahhha, im thinking too much..

Thursday was a fun day, went sentosa with poly mates, ahhahha. Reached the beach at around 3 plus, The weather was cloudy, no sun , but also no rain too. Put down stuffs den played Frisbee first. Wa, i think my Frisbee skills deprove sia. Den afterr that play ball game, plus soccer, I played till keep falling inton the sand, muahhhaha. The sand is unusally soft, maybe they just change it, or perhaps it due to climate changes. After that went inside the sea play "MONKEY-TRYING-TO CATCH-BALL". LOL, i keep on diving to the water to get the ball, resulting in temporary sore eyes.

Friday afternoon went cafe to play games, then at night went meet up with poly mates again for dinner at Sakura. It came in a buffet style.The food was not too bad, but the herbal soup was the best! It was also a time to catch up with friends, but the price was not cheap, once in a while , it's okay, i guess.

Today, went for soccer session, followed by guitar classes, and then went with AWWA clique to ViVo, went fod court makan, den went outside stabucks slack for very long, after that went dine at Super Dog and went home.

That's about it for the week, haha.

2009-04-15T21:20:00.008+08:00

Wow, times really files, it seems like it was just days ago since I have just finished my exams! I shall just update a bit on what i did during this almost two months break.

I guess holidays this time round seems to be rather fruitful. Firstly, was the trip to Genting with sec school fiends during the end of feb. It was great entertainment, sumptuous food, midnight movies, shopping, and also enjoy the cool breeze when you take the thrilling ride on the corkscrew, or roller coaster, the feeling is just so shiok!

After the Genting trip, I slacked for about two weeks , either spending my time rotting at home dotaing,or FIFA-ing, chatting on msn, watching tv, if not it just be hanging out with friends for mahjoing sessions, or dinner , and window shopping. Ah! It was during this time i was introduced to game known as Left4Dead, L4D. It is a shooting game, and hey, it's not just any shooting game, you get to kill zombies, and in different style, spamming bullets and try to take out as many as possible , blast their head off with shotgun, burn them to death, and the list goes on.. Anyway, the thing I like about the game's that you can't solo the whole game by yourself, it requires a lot of teamwork, coordination, timing and skill, of course. The music's not bad too, it builds up the tension as you are playing the game.It's just a pity that the maps are too little, and yeah, I went on a sort of L4D spree wit my poly clique for a couple of nights at a particular lan shop.

And so after all these fun and games, it was time to earn some $$$! I managed to get a job on my first ay of job-hunting, kind of lucky, i guess, the pay is okay, i would say, due to the economic recession.. My work was on a project based, so my first project was to get people to do a phone-based survey. It was quite simple, as they provide us with a list of names to call up, and there's incentive for every completed survey. The colleagues there weren't so great, quite slack, and .. Oh well..

Anyway, soon it was the release of results. I would say it was pretty okay, ought i obtained my first D ever, but it was expected, still, I managed to maintain my gpa, so i guess i shouldn't complain, and yes, i did better than i predicted, so I shouldn't go on ranting.

After that was the chalet at sentosa with sec sch friends, basically spending the entire time playing poker cards, mahjoing-ing, and of course BBq-ing. Itt was followed bya new project whereby Louis and I had to do transcription , basically listening to recorded conversations after conversations, figuring out what they say, word for word into the com, I thought it was simple, and i was so damn wrong. It doesn't help when the interviews were conducted at a noisy environment, and fast speaking people and angmos with chim accent simply just add to my woes. The last day of work was the worst, caused need to start work at 8am and also to finish up with all the transcripts. Man, now i just want to get the freaking pay at the end of the month.

And then, it was the release of the time table, and I can only say it sucks big time, so many days start early and end late, and a lot of breaks in between lessons that is simply a waste of time, and the worst thing is no more FOUR day week, sian.. However, year 3 means new class, and that means new friends? hahha. Anyway year 3 also no time to make friends, cause it's a curial year.. yeah, hopefully i won't come to regret the specialization that I have chosen.

So now, it's the last few days of holidays, heh I must make full use of it, ahahha. Hmm, I kind of forgot some stuffs which i wanted to update on, lol. Ah, later i'll be catching the Arsenal match, and that match might well determine the outcome of their season. It will definitely be a turning point regardless of the results. Alright, I'll update soon!

2009-02-20T12:23:00.000+08:00

Hello. I finally have time to blog, actually i've been just too lazy to blog.

Time really files, and it's now the ever-so-common exam period.

I'm having this damn cough and slight flu since the start of the week, sad sia, always gets me wondering why i get all these shit during the exam period. Never mind, I rather fall sick now than falling sick after my exams.

Two papers are DOWN, and it's now the last, and to me, the toughest paper. No wonder I'm given the weekend to study.

I'm already in holiday mood, but for results' sake, i guess i don't have much of a choice.

I now trying to read, understand and memorize 15 weeks of lessons( including some lame diagrams that are worth quite a lot of marks.) in just a mere 2 and a half days?!?? That is what happen when you procrastinate. ahaha. At least, I still find poly studies much easier than those times in secondary school, Most likely is because of the considerable small amount of examinable modules and the HIGH MODERATION, which seems to only applied on my course. Despite all these benifits, I'm still complaining all the time. Geez.

Enough about all these exam crap, I'm looking forward to go to Genting with my sec sch clique, Man, i can''t wait. But first, 23 Feb 2009, 18:01 MUST come faster, so I can declare the end of my exams and the party can start thereafter. LOL

I'm counting down.. and good luck to all those peeps who are having examinations or important tests. Jiayou! Jiayou! =)

2008-12-12T23:50:00.002+08:00

Okay, i'm going to make it quick here. Lol

Common Tests have just ended, and it's the two week term break, but that means i have to recharge myself and get ready for projects and tests and whatever work there is. Man, i been slacking since Thursday, mainly playing dota and fifa.

I'm heading off to penang in about 12 hours time, i can't wait man !

I gotta sleep soon if not can't wake up tmr.

I be back real soon!

Btw, any kind souls can help me with my ikariam acc?? Much appreciated.

I'm outta here.

2008-12-08T04:16:00.000+08:00

Gosh, it's been so long since i last updated my blog..

and man, what's time is it now?!?

I'm trying hard to memorize/study/ or whatever means and ways to remember chunks of information into my brain, and it a case of I-know-what-i-am-supposed-to-do-yet-i-am-not-doing-it kinda thing over and over again.

ARGH. So many thoughts and crazy happenings for the past month is pushing me to my limits..

I guess it'll be all over in about three day's time..

Alright, all the best to those who are having tests and exams. MUST ADD OIL, exceed the tank limit also can,

and i guess i'll go back to my mugging =((

2008-10-18T23:12:00.003+08:00

Man, I feel like shit,

You now what it feel like when backstabbing happens, You don't know, lemme tell you,

It's a contagious virus, it spreads from the person A, to Person B, and to c, D , and it goes on, and what worse, is that the backstabbing get worse as it goes on, den who get hurts, ALL the people involved!!!

I agree that conflicts happens, but it's seem to come back to me all the time, it's like a virus which multiply, and grow after you kill it each time, it grows stronger each time, immune to all the previous workable methods used to kill it.

I'm in a dilemma, I don't really know how to handle this,

Damn these conflicts, it simply drains time, effort, and makes me so exhausted

Forgive and forget, so easy to say, yet so tough to be done.

When people backstab you, what would you do??

When your friends backstab each other, who'll you help??

It's so sickening, it's really fcuked up!

I can't possibly sit on the fence, cause it's not the right thing, not the right way, and it's definitely not my way of doing tings.

Conflicts is like a cycle , it starts, then people 'll get hurt, and friends would slowly drift apart, then it's solved, den it'll start all over again.

Time heals, but how long 'll it take????

I guess, only time can be the judge.

Trouble's brewing, i can sense it, it's so close, It's like mocking at me.

please tell me it's all just a nightmare

A place free of mortal woes and troubles? How I long to go.

2008-10-12T22:47:00.001+08:00

Holidays are coming to and end, pity that there are really little breaks in between lessons, BUT FOUR-DAY week, MUAHHHAHHAH.

2008-10-05T15:03:00.000+08:00

It's time to blog, cause it's gonna be the last week of holidays, so I hope i can enjoy while it lasts. And mind you, it's gonna be a really, really long entry.

Thursday, 25 September

I can't really what i did on that day, i think most probably must be slacking at home.

Friday, 26 september,

Morning slacked, used com, was supposed to meet ken and the rest of the church mates at cp for dinner at 6.30pm, i reach there a about 6.35, but the rest were all later than me, so have to wait quite a bit, about 7pm, went to KFC makan, and then headed to church for cell. Walked home after that, to watch the F1 practice session, It's live on channel 5, but think from next year onwards won't be live on channel 5. Fast and furious cars

Sat 27 September

Met Jermayne and gang at Raffles place, den went Mos burger for lunch, and then discussions, The food quite expensive sia. Then HCF members then continue discussions, after the discussions, accompanied Jermayne and Amanda chit chat a while, den I headed off to church for FFW.

Sunday 28 september

Went for church service, after that met poly clique at Orchard mrt, walked, and started on a hunt for gifts for three october babies, ahhahhaha. Birthday only come once a year, unless u are born on 29 feb, shop ah, walked ah,
Then headed to city hall cause there sell more things, walked to suntec, den after a few headed to the foodcourt makan, eat the clay pot rice, den also dai di a while until 8 plus den continue haunt for gifts.Onour way to Millena walk, can hear the cars' engine from the f1 race, and man it's not loud, its thunderous!! The sound is like planes keep on flying past singaporea fter ever min or so, lmao.
can hear the VAROMMMMM sound so damn loud, i hink my eardrums gonna burst, a lot of peeps were trying all means and ways to vie the f1 race FOC, some were standing in water ah, some at rooftop, some standing at high slope, and some fom hotels.

And we finally brought finished all the gifts for the three bday peeps!!

And the winner of the Singapore Grand Prix is Alonso!!!! YAY, he's my favourite driver. WOOts!! 5 more years of action,maybe i should start saving money for a grandstand ticket and also ear plugs of course. =)

Monday 29 september,

It's a day to rest and slack after one whole day of a walking, lol. I think i must have dota the whol day long today, i think played Hero Siege with my bro.

Tuesday 30 september

OHHHH, IT was JY's birthday!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY. AHHAHHA, and so, met with the rest of the poly clique, and JY's bro joined us too. We met at plazza sing, and what do we have for dinner again??? Yes, it's Astons, sorry for my spelling mistakes in the pervious entries. Anyway, i have Double up chicken again, this time choosing different chicken combos, den got one staff there quite friendly also, after that went to the X-zone arcade , den we played the basketball ones, must throw as many balls as possible into the net within the given time limit, but my aiming sucks, lol, but still it was rather fun.

Trained back to Cp, den walked home.

Wednesday 1st October

Was a double day, CHILDREN DAY and Hari raya, erm, hope i got the spelling right.

Anyway, wishes to all malays friends out there, and also Happy Children Day to all, cause everybody is a child at heart. Sometimes i wish i'm a small innocent kid, so i won't have any kind of fear, okay, let's get back to topic, Lol.

And so What did i do on this rather special day, I Went to SENTOSA with my poly clique, i think i went to sentosa like five r six times this year, the only think i don't like is the 3 dollars one time entrance free and expensive food,

Was supposed to meet kelvin, zh, ruth , jy, cg, kenny and zhi yong at harbourfront, but then while pasting by kovan station, kelvin said some of them overslept and would be late, so after i reached vivo, i went to window shop a bit. Then met them at the control station at around 11.45, den zy can't come cause he grounded, so sad, so long haven seen him liao, while kenny overslept, and so we headed to the nearby hawker centre to have our lunch/ or B-unchs, for some of them. I had a sugar cane drink cause i was not really hungry, den we spam calls kenny to make him wake up, LOL. He finally called back and said he'd be late and so we decided to go sentosa first.

Went back vivo, took the lift up to the top floor, den SAW A LOT A LOT OF PPL, OMG, all kinds of people sia, must queue up for tickets and then squeezed into the monorail after that, it was damn suffocating , argh, finally reached Beach station, den got some fresh air. Walked to sulisoo beach, there were a lot of people having fun there, and w mnagd to find a spot to put our mat and our things sia, den after that i decided to sleep a while cause it was very windy, while kelvin, zh, cg, ruth and jy played Frisbee, den kelvin very suay, the Frisbee keep on hit a group of peeps nearby us, and there was this WOMEN in yellow, she damn bitchy sia, and she said "hit the fourth time no more sorry, i tell you!"

Wlw, she's like vase la, come sentosa is to have fun in the sand, den she sitting there only, never mind, kenna hit a bit kpkb, other people kenna hit also never complain , wth,

Then I played Frisbee with zh and kelvin, den i threw the Frisbee, the wind blew hard as i threw , and the Frisbee hit a gal's backside, OMG, i was damn paiseh, but the girl also didn't scold me or what, cause she also playing Frisbee, NOT LIKE THAT damn bitch in yellow!!

After a while, kenny came, den just continued play, den Ruth, jy, cg and kenny went canoeing, while zh ko-ed caused he one whole day never sleep, and the red bull effects had already wore off, and so me and kelvin played a bit of soccer and a lot of FRibsee, so fun sia, Then, the rest came back from canoeing, and so w went swimming, but the water is damn dirt and salty, the sand was super black also, and got a lot of algae, but nvm, Water was freezing cold, after a while, make the pandan cake for JY, add a lot of our own ingredients, with a LOT, a lot of white cream on the cake. LOL,

den kenny told JY to come over, den we al sing birthday song and after that was the funny part, THE CAKE-SMASHING Time!!

Kenny said it was time to eat the cake, den JY said how to eat sia??

Den kenny said like that la, den he take the cake and break it into smaller pieces and held them in both hands. then h asked jy come nearer to eat the cake, den he SMASHED the cake in jy face, jy was caught by surprise , and so she fell backwards and accidently hit her head,
but luckily she recovered and started chasing kenny and cg with the cake, and i was kenny's next victim, followed by zh and kelvin. Then, we all went inside the sea to wash away the sticky cream, after a while went bath, and saw some of my church mates in the toilet too. lol, such a coincidence.

Bath-ed finished then went vivo Carl junior makan le, so shiok, cause i was super hungry, after meal went to vivo's top floor and then went outside to enjoy the wind and just sit there and chit chat, all the way till 11 plus, den faster catch last train home. It was indeed a fun day.

Thursday 2nd October,

I woke up at 11am, then saw zh'msg asked me meet at 1pm to go Ruth's hse for mahjong, but i already promised my mum to have lunch at home, so 1 plus faster go bath, den eat then quickly went out.

Reached Ruths 'hse at around 3 plus, kenny and kelvin were already there. Shortly after that, zh arrived, den we just played a few rounds of mahjong, after which we then train-ed to Causeway point met up with JY and CG, den went to buy the tickets for the movie, "Painted Skin", den we just went to buy some snacks and dinks and faster went to catch the movie,

Man, this movie is the best chinese film I have seen this year, it really a great show, nice actions, fighting scenes, nice storyline, and quite a numbers of twists you won't have expected. You guys should really catch this show, lol,

The only not-so-great parts are the sudden loud sound effects at time, and the starting party of the show was a bit confusing, i 'd give it a 4/5 rating for the show.

After movie, train-ed to yishun, den went makan at the coffee shop near the interchange, to have Chicken rice, after that walked to Yishun safra club which was a distance away, We went here for bowling, it's been ages since the last time i played bowling.

i won't deny my bowling is lousy, but it's okay, cause I think go there just have fun can liao. We played a total of 3 games, Lol, my score are not good, but my score improved by 4 after each game.

After that, walked back to yishun interchange den i bus-ed back to cp, and walked home.

On the way home, i met louis, Lol, he so zai, went on a date, not bad, not bad. He war until so nice sia, with tie all that, den juz chit-chat a bit den we made our way home.

Friday 3rd October

Slacked at home in the morning, was supposed to meet my churchmates for cell in the night, and meet louis and wenbin for a drink, but i was damn suay ah, cause i had stomach upsets for the whole day, keep go in out of the toilet, like washing machine liao ah, I also dunno what i have eaten that cause me kenna this shit! Argh, so i just rest at home and keep play dota, lmao.

Saturday 4rd October

Today was Raj's bday, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! WOOT!!! MAN utd RULES!!! ahhahha. Anyway, just slacked at home throughou the day, den met up with churchmates at 6pm for dinner at mac, den after that went to ask peole at compass point helped us do simple surverys, Lol, den after that walked home and slack again, lolol.

Sunday, Today

Overslep, so i didn't went for service, den went church at 11, after church, lunch-ed at 308 coffeeshop, den went home, today weather is so damn hot, zz

And so, i'm here blogging.

Anyway, here are the some of the photos we took at sentosa, enjoy,

Btw, i have just changed my blog song again, Lol, here are the lyrics,

After some time I've finally made up my mind
she is the girl and I really want to make her mine
I'm searching everywhere to find her again
to tell her I love her
and I'm sorry 'bout the things I've done
I find her standing in front of the church
the only place in town where I didn't search
She looks so happy in her wedding dress
but she's crying while she's saying this

Chorus:
Boy I've missed your kisses all the time but this is
twenty five minutes too late
Though you travelled so far boy I'm sorry your are
twenty five minutes too late
Against the wind I'm going home again
wishing me back to the time when we were more than friends
But still I see her in front of the church
the only place in town where I didn't search
She looked so happy in her wedding dress
but she cried while she was saying this

Chorus:
Boy I've missed your kisses all the time but this is
twenty five minutes too late
Though you travelled so far boy I'm sorry your are
twenty five minutes too late
Out in the streets
places where hungry hearts have nothing to eat
inside my head
still I can hear the words she said

Chorus:
Boy I've missed your kisses all the time but this is
twenty five minutes too late
Though you travelled so far boy I'm sorry your are
twenty five minutes too late
I can still hear her say.......

Anyway, I feel i've not beenmyself lately, Maybe it's because of you, sometimes i wonder..

, and do TAG me if you have the time to read till here.

Okay, ciao.

2008-09-24T23:31:00.003+08:00

Hullo =D

Yesterday was a fun day.

Tuesday,

Woke up at 8 plus, why so early?? Cause i had a sleepless night, Slacked till 1 plus, den got a splitting headache. Wth. Went out at 2 plus, den at the train, don't have the headache. This headache 'll come once in a while. Reached Ps at 3pm, den sms-ed kelvin and the rest, After a while, Kelvin, Zh, and ruth came, and shortly after that, Jy arrived.

While we were talking, two gals came to us, offering us FREE brownies, as sample to try, FOC leh. Man, the brownies were really nice, and so we found out from the two gals where their shop were located at, cause we intended to patronize the shop.

We then headed off to the interview at Cathy, I filled up the application form, den waited for the mangers to interview us, the interview about 5 minutes nia, just asked some simple questions and stuffs.

I suggested going to Ashton for dinner cause i've not tried them before and it seems rather appealing to m, but it was about like 4pm after the interviews ended, and dinner was like at 7pm, so what are we gonna do for 3 hours??

We walked up to lev 6 of the Cathy, den went to the red seats sit down slacked, so shiok, better than my house sofa. Lol. Then i asked if anyone got brought poker cards so can play dai di, Lo, but No one got bring.

Ruth wanted to buy poker cards, and so kelvin suggested go comics connections, It's JY favourite store, so when Ruth went to tell JY, she went,

"Ahhh, Comic Connections!!!", she exclaimed out while doing a seibei funny pose.

Then kelvin went to imitate JY a lot of times, in that kind o girly voice, and super funny pose, den the rest of us watched kelvin and JY playing "merry-go-round"

And so, Ruth and JY went to comic Connections at PS, while the rest of us took car of the seats, Lol.

And so the dai di begun after ruth brought back the cards.

Play dai dee really kills a lot of time, and at around 6 plus, CG came to find us after his driving lessons, den I remembered Got one dai di game, my biggest card was Kings, den i managed to won the games with Jacks, then after i won the game i was so happy that i gave a shout, Lmao.

At around 6.30pm, we went down Aston queue , then the waitress took our orders, and we waited for about 20 minutes then got seats liao. I ordered the double chicken combo, with 2 sides dishes and one glass of pepsi. After a while, kenny came with his newly born hair plus dye and highlights.

I think it's worth the 7 hours wait for his hair to be done causes it looks rather awesome to me.

And So, we eat and eat and eat. We eat very slowly, and then i told the rest the peeps waiting outside cfm tulan. MUHAAAAHAHHH.

I eat until i almost can't walk. Lol. Then we walked To the Dhouby Xchange to look for the brownies shop, and we found it!!
Anyway, the shop is called P.osh and they sell all kinds of brownies and it is really really really heavenly, great, The brownies seem to just melt in your mouth, and it's not too sweet either. You peeps should try these brownies, it's worth the money, and the bag that comes with the brownies are rather well designed, unique.

After that, we decided to head home in kenny's Mazda 3, a four-seater sedan.

Jy, Ruth, Zh, Kelvin, CG, Kenny and me, a total of 7 people, how to squeeze into a four seater Mazda? Lol. Kenny pulled the back sets down to create more space, so I was sitting at the fornt, Jy, ruth and zh were sitting at the back, and behind them, were CG and kelvin, half sitting/half laying down? Anyway, half of cg and kkelvin's bodies were in the car boot, and so we set off, with kenny driving, of course.

It was one of my craziest rides ever,or rather, it was certainly the most insane ride which I've try thus far. Lol. Drivers around us were like trying hard to peep inside the car and they must be bemused at the sight they see. While were were going past nicoll highway, we saw an indian traffic police, but he just took a quick glance into the car and signaled us to go, lmao. He didn't realized that there were 7 peeps in the car. Anyway, kenny was driving quite fast, i think 80km at one point of time cause it's a long stretch of roads with not much cars, but quite a few bends. Considering the weight of the car, i think kenny is rather skillful.

lol. Man, it was rather thrilling, something like a roller coaster, CG seems to love the whole ride a lot, he commented that it was very shiok. And so, kenny dropped JY off first at her hse downstairs, and then dropped me of next at SengKang, and so they said they were gonna try out the new expressway to Yishun, I think KJE or smth.

It was a rather insane but fun ride home =D

Today was a stay-at-home-and-slack-day for me.

Anyway, i would like to wish my elder bro A VERY VERY HAPPY 20th B' day, cause it your BIG day today.BaWahahahhha!!!

Hope that you have enjoyed your day, and all the gifts which you've received. Cheers =)

2008-09-23T10:04:00.000+08:00

Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start but can't complete

Listen to the sound from deep within
It's only beginning to find release

Ohh the time has come for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own, all 'cause you won't listen

[Chorus]
Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried
To say what's on my mind
You should have known
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what
You've made of me
I followed the voice, you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own
You should have listened

There was someone here inside
Someone I thought had died
So long ago
Oh I'm screaming out
And my dreams will be heard
They will not be pushed Aside or turned
Into your own
All 'cause you won't listen

[Chorus]
Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried
To say what's on my mind
You should have known
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what
You've made of me
I followed the voice, you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own
You should have listened

I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving on
If you don't, if you won't

Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start, but I will complete

Now I am done believing you
You don't know not what I am feeling
I'm more than what you've made of me
I followed the voice you think you gave to me

But now I got to find my own - my own

2008-09-22T16:54:00.002+08:00

Time really files,in about three weeks' time, the holidays 'll come to an end and a new semester starts, and it's kinda like a cycle.I won't say I'm not looking forward to it, but then again, this means those dreadful projects will be welcoming me again.

Let's just update a bit.

Friday night, 6pm

Went to meet CG, Zh, Ruth Jy and kenny at Ps's cafe cartel there, den we walked over the Cathy for a job interview. Upon reaching there, we were told interview are being held on weekdays, from Mon to Thrus. And so, we decided to wait for kelvin to come. While we were waiting, this guy approached us, and said to us, " Excuse me,"

I glanced at him, he was sticking out his tounge, took a deep breath before lifting his hands up, rolled up his sleeve, and said, " Look at my muscles!" I looked at kenny and the rest, den kenny burst out laughed, and the rest of us followed suit.

ROFL!!! The guy was totally random. Nonetheless, he gave all of us a good laugh.

Shortly then, Kelvin came. I went off to Plaza Sing to catch a movie with my church peeps.

Anyway, it was a local film, titled "The Days" . I think it was a great movie, one of the best local film i've ever seen. The movie made me ponder over some stuffs too.

After the movie, went bak Cathy met up with kelvin and peeps. They were dining at Ashton. Lol, heard that they queue for an hour and so. After which, walked back To Ps, den walked around before Jy went off, and kenny fetched the rest of us home. While we were traveling along Punngol Road, the Moon caught our attention, The moon was yellow color, unlike its usual while, and it was like floating very low, lol, and he moon was really big, with lots of cloud covering the top part of the moon.

And i pointed at the moon like two times =O

Saturday,

woke up at 6 plus, faster eat, bath and pack, den took bus meet Jermayne and gang, den played soccerat a street soccer court. Anyway, i had a sucky game, After that went to bath, and then went four guitar lessons. Lol, after that , went to had lunch together with Jermayne. Then talk a lot of stuffs, before we walked back to bus stop. Halfway thee, I realised Jermayne forgot his shoe bag so went back take, after that went home and slacked.

Sunday

Went Church. After taht went makan, saw bao shu there, and he was meeting Jun kang, after which sat down and chat for a while. I can see these JC dudes are really stressed, after 40 more days till their A levs. Jiayou! Went home slacked, den 6 plus, Wen Bin called me told me tonight have traffic count from 9 till 12 midnight, and so I met Louis at my hse downstairs at around 7.30, den trained down to City hall to meet Teddy, the person in charge. He was a bit late, dem I was supposed to station also the Swissotel Raffles Stamford, or also known As Raffles Convention centre. *855pm, stood here, then got a gang of about 9 ppl came out an smoked in front of me! Wth, Then Teddy showed me a place and so sat down and do the traffic count, Lol, the night breeze was shiok, den i just sat down, look at incoming cars, taxis, buses, waiting for them to stop, and count how many people alighted. Saw a couple of lambo, with their raving engine. And i saw a couple of rats running past me too. Stoned there, enjoying my music and the fresh air with the night breeze, Louis came to find me and just chit hat and pressed the "thingy", to keep track of the amount of people, Do till 12 midnight, have a total of 253 people, .den went to return the stuffs and took cab back. Alighted at my hse's downstairs, the 7-eleven, brought some food, and then ate while chatting with Louis. Chatted till 2 plus, den went home.

Today,

Nothing much. Woke up at 11 plus, and slacked. Going out soon..

I need to find a way to stop this addiction, Damn..

2008-09-19T17:10:00.002+08:00

Hi. I am here to blog.

Okay, first up, I'm doing this questionnaire on behalf of Jermayne's request =)

and so, before I forget about it, I should do it now.

Here it goes.

#1 Where would you go if someone sponsors you an air ticket

South Korea, I prefer the beautiful cultural and scenery there, and i'll give a miss To England to catch the Gunners in action, cause I would like to get away from city life and experience life in the country side.

#2 What's your favourite thing to do ?

Slacking!!!

which includes,

Gaming

Soccer

Hanging out with friends

Chatting with friends

#3 Do you think money can buy happiness ?

Absolutely not, Happiness is for us to fight for, and money can't never buy them, maybe a short- term relationship can be brought with money,( that is if ur willing to be conned of ur $$) But i won't deny money can buy many other things, especially materialistic stuffs.

#4 If you were given a chance to receive something, what would it be ?

True Love?? I aint too sure about this question.

#5 Things you cant live without:

Family

Friends

God

Air

Water

Daily necessaries

#6 What are you afraid to lose ?

God

Ability to walk

#7 If you win $1 million dollars, what would you do ?
Give some to my family,

Give some to God,

Give some to charity, welfare associations

Treat my friends to a meal which they won't forget

Pamper myself with some stuffs which I desire

and if there's any more money left,

I store them in the bank for interests and of course,

till an rainy day comes when I can put the $ to good use

#8 What do you dream of doing in the future ?

My Dream is to be a manager of Arsenal. Muhaahhahha

#9 List down 3 good points about the person who gave you this survey :
Friendly,

Cheerful,

Honest

Anyway, he's a really nice chap.

#10 What makes you happy ?

You complete my Life.

Being able to be born by my mum!!

so that I can experience the sweets and the sorrows of life,

or rather so i'm typing these right now. Lol.

#11 What type of person do you hate the most ?

I don't wish to hate anybody, maybe people who doesn't repent after committing some wrongdoing?

Anyway, forgive and forget is a virtue

#12 If you have a super power what would it be ?

The ability to heal, be it physically, emotionally, or mentally.

#13 Would you go for happiness or money ?
Definitely Happiness

#14 Who do you think are the most important people in your life ?

My Loved ones.

#15 If you have a boyfriend(girlfriend), would you die for him(her) ?

If it just my girlfriend, then no. If she's my true love, then yes.

#16 Who's the last person who hugged you ?
Frankly speaking, I can't remember, maybe it's my "wife", Zh.

Anyone wanna FREE HUGS??

#17 What is the one thing you want to do badly right now ?
I want to Pee!!!

No la, actually also nothing i wanna do badly now =X

#18 Who are you close to ?

Friends

Family

#19 Are you courageous enough to the person that you like him (her) ?
I don't think so. Can someone grant me courage?

#20 If you could do one thing all over again what would it be ?

To start the day on10th June 2007 again and again. Just don't ask me why is it so.

7 things that scares you:

Sudden Loud sounds

Heights

Nightmares

Demons/ghosts

The fear of losing my loved ones

The idea of being alone forever

End of the World

Hell, yes, Literally Hell.

7 things that you like/love the most :
Oh man, There are more than 7 things,

Myself (I've to start loving myself before I can love any things right?)

God

ARSENAL

Spending time with family

Hanging Out Friends

Chilling out/Slacking

My lappy!!

7 important things in my room now,

Laptop

Medals/awards/cert.

Bed( for slacking purpose)

Family Photo

Important photos with friends

Gifts from friends

Air-Conditioner (To counter the ever-rising temperature due to global warming.)

7 random facts about me :

Seriously, I'm gonna give some random facts about myself, most of which even some of my friends are not aware of. So you don't have to read.

I have sudden mood swings at times =O

I get turned on by something really easily, can't say what that is or else I'm screwed.

Enjoy getting myself tanned.

Likes to do funny and stupid faces via my webcam

Likes to fantasize about random and somewhat impossible stuffs, especially when I'm alone

The habit of drooling in my sleep, maybe that's link to my ability to talk while I'm sleeping.

I seriously loathe the sight of pimples on my faces!! but then again, it can't be helped.

7 things I plan to do before I die :

Sounds like i'm dying soon, huh =.=

Travel around the world,

To be able to drive a car

To earn my first one million (SG dollars)!!

To be together with my other half

To stay in a condo

To go on mission trips

To enjoy my last meal, that's if could.

7 things i can do :

I can certainly do more than 7 things, so surely you won't expect me to list them all out right?

7 things i can't do :

As long as you put your heart, mind and your soul in doing something, you can do it. Nothing's impossible. You won't know until u try, so just do it.

7 things you are attracted to in the opposite sex :

Sexy( really kinda depends)

Friendly

Trustworthy

Understanding

Sense of humor

Natural cuteness?? lmao

eh, I really dunno ah

Most important thing ah, is must have the feeling, If don't have the feeling, also useless de.

7 things i always say :

lol

bye

yeah

okay

wad time?

lmao

7 people to do this questionnaire :(If you really don't want know, it's fine with me =D )

Edward

Fong Yee

Kelvin

Kenny

Mei Ping

Ruth

Zhong Hui

Man, this questionnaire really sets me thinking, good food for thought..

Anyway, as promised, It's time to update on the chalet. The chalet was held on 8 september till the 10th. It was to just chill and slack and have lots of FUNNNNN within our poly clique, and yes, yes, there was certainly a lot of fun.

We raeched the chalet at about 3pm on the 8th. Basically, I was just slacking with suv while the others went swimming. At night it's was the steamboat, woot, so much food and it's just so yummy!!! Then went to mahjong and dai di. Play play, and time files, and so at about 1am plus kenny brought zh, CG raj and kelvin in his car to go drive around, den left me Ruth, JY and SUV, and so we played mahjong. Muhahhahhaha. Meanwhile, Kenny and the rest went Old Changi Hospital see see a bit, and i know it was damn scary. After 3 plus , kenny and peeps came back with mac, den i faster go bath. Lol, bath at 3 plus a bit scary, cause there was this " flushing water" sound taht keeps on going on while i was bathing. After that, there were like a cockroach at the living room, and after a few futile attempts to kill it, i think it was eventually stoned to death. Poor thing =(

Went to continue mahjong until 5 plus, den want to watch sun rise my the gate closed, not yet opened, Argh. After that went to slack, and so we decide to go swimming. Wa, the water was quite cold but after a while used to it liao. Just played around in the pool and swim till like 8 plus den went back bath. And so, we went to make french toast for breakfast and it was nice. I haven slept for one whole day so a bit tired, and so decided to go play soccer and Frisbee with zh and kelvin, play a while den not so tired le. lol.

In the evening time, jy's bro joined us and so we headed to arcade to play, but I don't have 50 cents den can't play, can't play arcade, so went to swim again. So shiok sia. Got like one chio bu there. lmao. swim till 5 plus den went to jacuzzi to relax. First time u go in it's damn hot, it seems as if ur skin is bathing, but after a while, get used to the heat liao. So shiok. After 5 plus, went back bath again, den prepare bbq all that, den 7 plus, Mr Son and Ms wong came le, den bbq start, bbq all the way till 12 plus. One thing for sure, too much food was brought, there were like 70 over hotdogs. Lol, it was like a food feast, chicken wings, satay(total 100 sia!!) prawns, and many more!!!! I eat until i feel so bloated that i almost can't move, den w took a group photo before Mr Son and ms wong went off. Lol. Ms wong told me i look as if i've not slept in years.

After clearing bbq stuffs, kenny sent raj home in his car, with Cg accompanying them. Den the rest of us went tobath and den we all decidedto play dai di inside the room. Play ah, i won quite a bit =D play halfway, got one funny incident.

we were sitting in a circle playing, Me jy, ruth and kelvin with zh watching us play. Then the door suddenly opened. me and jy were facing the door, Jy screamed, den i heard her screaming, I also went screaming. LMAO. It's a chain effect. All kenna shocked. Actually is kenny and cg came back after sending raj home. They said they pressed the door bell den no one heard so they decided to climb their way in. LOL, and we though some gosts or something suddenly opened the door and came in or something. Then CG and kenny decided to climb through our room's window and went into suv's room through his window to scare him, cause we all know suv KO-ed in his room, but too bad suv very alert, heard all the commotion le. but still, good effort in trying to scare him. We all went bonkers, laughing in our futile attempt to scare suv.

LOL, den cg and kenny went bath, den i go makan a bit with the soya bean milk, eat finish liao, feel damn sleepy so went to sleep. Then I know they all shift room cause i sleeping. Then think i woke up at 5 plus, I went out of the room, den Kenny told me it was his turn to sleep le, lol. Den Ruth also went sleep, den me , CG, JY and kelvin continued dai dee, den also eat the tuna canned food, damn spicy, den after that JY went to sleep and zh also fell asleep. & plus, went to clear and pack stuffs, den SUV woke up, and so we decide to go Swimming again. lmao sia. Wa, the water is super cold, i dare not swim like freezing, but heck ah, cause also no more chance to swim there liao. Then went to the jacuzzi relax again after it opened at around 8 plus. SHIOK man, i love it, it's like soaking myself in hot spring or something, den went back chalet, bath again, bath finished le, the attendant acme to check le, den everyone woke up, bath and packed their stuffs. LOl. Everyone was like so beat, and totally exhausted. After that went to White sands shopping mall food court there makan, den went home.

Overall, chalet was indeed fun. It was certainly a time to relax, slack, and also away from laptop. WOOt!!! Although my pocket kinda hurts, but i guess it's all worthwhile.

Here's are the photos. I know they're overdue

2008-09-18T23:18:00.002+08:00

I'm here to blog again. This whole week quite sian, cause I not working, den just stay at home to rest plus slack lor. Anyway, just to update about the week..

Tuesday, 12.00am

IT's Results Day. Cant log in to E-services(NYP). Wait till around 1.15am, den can log in,first things saw my results quite relieved and glad, cause most of the subjects, i did better than I expected, and there were certainly more As than I expected. Anyway, A lot of peeps in the class did rather well and this time Have two persons get full marks instead of one. Well Done Dr.Lim!! Congrats to all who have done well, and I think generally, all of the peeps improve from last sem, and should be rather pleased with their results.

One should learn to be contented, and not to be too greedy, and thus, I aint gonna complain about my results or whatsoever, perhaps IP was a bit disappointing though. That aside , it's time to look forward to a new semester, and of course the new elective and timetable.

Went to meet poly peeps during the evening time. Went to dine at Long John's den catch the movie Boys over Flowers Final, the show to bad, it's a romance show, than have a lot of twists in the story, and it was certainly a, "and they live happily ever after" ending.

Den went slacked at centerpoint mac, den kenny fetched the rest home.

Wednesday

Nothing much, basically slacking at home the whole day long, using my lappy.

Thursday

Went to meet shawn at Tiong Baru Plaza, been quite a while since I last saw him, went to arcade to play, lol, den wait Fo GV to open, den brought tickets to the Disaster Movie, went to makan and walk around the mall,

Anyway, the movie was okay, funny parts throughout, with all kinds of characters, Batman, hellboy, Jessica Simpsons, Incredible Hulk, Iron Man, Kungfu Panda, u nameit, they have it.

However, the story-line is kinda lame.

After movie, train-ed home.

It's more than a month, and I know you're happy now, and so I'm happy too. It's doesn't matter who you are with, cause I'm nobody to care about that.

The fragments of memories will always stay within my heart till the day I bid farewell to Mother Earth.

It's the process that matters, not the end result.

2008-09-15T20:52:00.005+08:00

Yes. I've quitted the survey job, and.. yeah, It all but lasts for three days. Yeah, and It quite tiring to be honest, but it was no doubt an experience, and of course I've made some new friends. Today is kinda like one of the worst day in my life.

It's kinda stupid other events seems to pop out of nowhere after I've decided to quit, and oh well,

It's probably kinda my mistake in a way, but I've my own other reasons for quitting too, and it's not just cause of the money.

Sorry for causing a lot of inconvenience for you guys, maybe I had made too fast a decision,too wrong a decision??

but well, since the decision is already made, I can't do anything about it now.

Sorry again. I guess I kinda fucked things up indirectly.

Anyway, I have this other traffic count job at the night and yesterday was the first day. It's rather simple but it get boring after a while, and yeah, now i know that there are 1388 people visiting orchard on a sunday night.

While i was sitting down there doing the traffic count, and blasting music at the same time, an old lady caught my eye, cause she was walking in and out of the MRT's gates, and she's a cleaner, and she's like doing her work without any complaint, and considering her age, I think it's just admirable, it's like i see her walking out every 10 minutes and back again, and out. It kinda made me feel guilty cause sometimes a bit of shit here and there, and i would be complaining.

Hats off to her.

And Yeah, exams 's results is like just round the corner. I have this sinking feeling in me ever since this morning, but A means , F means F, It's reality, I can roughly guessed my grades, I just hope, or rather prayed that my exams will be enough to let me hang in there, argh.

I wonder how I'm gonna tell my dad that i am not working tmr, and worse still, about my possibly lousy results.

Now, I know what happens when you makes decisions without thinking of the consequences.

Anyway, all the best to those who are working, and all the best for all the peeps taking their results tonight, be it good or bad.

I hope I'm thinking too much, and it's like the first time I'm thinking in this way

It's time for me to wake up and face the music.

2008-09-14T09:09:00.002+08:00

Okay. I haven been online for a while due to work.

The work is rather simple, just keep interviewing visitors that come to the exhibition, one survey= 5 bucks(which could be more, with it going up to a maximum of 7 bucks per piece.)

and I'm not supposed to just give them the survey to do by their own, which i've not done so either. I was posted to this old army camp, quite rural and a lot of mosquitos around, so keep on kenna love bites, It's an outdoor place, so no aircon sia.

Anyway, both days quite sian, I only did like barely over 10 surveys for two days, while both kenny and zh did like 20 surveys in one single day. Oh well, most of the visitors, either came from city hall or mariana bay( cause there have free admission) and have already been interviewed by kenny or zh, so by the time they came to my place, near the beach rd, they can't do the survey liao, as they have already done them. =(

Saw one of my ex-working colleague with her bf

Then she told me she have already done the survey at city hall, so she can't help me do le. Haiz.

It seems like a lot of peeps don't really know how to get to my place from city hall, maybe that's kinda explains the lack of crowd.

Btw, my colleague that is posted at the place as me also lives in Sengkang, and he's like living one block away from me. Lol, den also same surname as me, so I met him to go to work together yesterday.

Ahh. Also like no eye candies sia, even if have also, is couple one. Sian. Hope I can get more completed surveys today, if not I'm like earning so damn little. Argh!

I'm still wondering if i should continue to work next week, but I know kenny and zh cfm will cause they are like earning 100 bucks per day.

Someone save me..

Hope that i would have better luck today.

2008-09-11T14:51:00.002+08:00

Hey, I 've just came back from chalet yesterday.

Woke up at 11am today, which means i've slept for a whopping 11 hours, cause i slept at 12 midnight last night.

Let's me just update a bit about yesterday, and today.

11 Sep

I reached home at about 2pm. Lol, feeling sleepy, and I certainly dozed off a couple of times on the bus.

Anyway, first thing I did when i reached home was to on the fan, slumped myself onto the sofa, and read the papers.

Yes, it's my daily habit which i've never fail to do since sec 2.

You know, it's important to keep yourselves update with the current and worldly affairs, and besides, there are all kinds of news, interesting , boring, devastating, you name it, it's all there. After an hour or so, went to bath, I think I have had bathed a total of 6 times in 3 days.

Bath is like a refresher. It's feel a new day again.

It was time to on my lappy, cause i've neglect her for 2 days. Aww.

Did some chatting, surfing and then it was time to dota, on Garena, GG.

Two games in about two and a half hours.

Both games also kenna owned. Pathetic.

Dota Makes time fly.

And so it was 12 midnight real soon. And so, i slept a total of 3 hours in the last 62 hours.

12 Sep

Like I've said. I woke up at 11, den read papers as usual, had my breakfast and on the lappy. Seems all too familiar? huh. It's like a daily routine . Zhong Hui den called me and told me there's an available job for me. Yay!

Workings means generating income, but I think it's more of an experience, although I'm really kinda in need of fast cash, cause I've spent quite a lot in the past two weeks.

Commission-based job makes us want to work harder.

And so, I hope I'll be able to earn quite a bit tomorrow.

Btw I was bored and so I did this, It's kinda long, while i've to admit some points were rather true.

What my name means?

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.
You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.
At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.
You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.
Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.
You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.
You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you.
You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries.
You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.

You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.
And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.
You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.

Oh so it means I be lucky tomorrow?

Okay. that all. Will update on the chalet soon. =)

2008-09-05T17:04:00.002+08:00

Bored, super bored, damn bored.

Let's see. I've been rotting at home since wed. Erm, was supposed o go out in the morning, but then Louis can't make it.

Anyway, i realised I'm super lousy in dota and I need some training badly.

But it's a rare case when i used an int hero and own just now, although it's just against insane AI=(

Shadow Shaman The Rhasta,

It's one of my favourite int hero, pity it has low hp, kinda low manna at the start, and super slow movement speed.

5 vs 5 game,

the statistics

11/3/15

(Last three kills were triple kills)

Anyway, there's just something I realy loathe, and that is super arrogant rich bastards who spare no thoughts for others.

Oh, You want to know who I'm referring to?

And that's is none other than the new man city owner, Dr Sulaiman Al-Fahim. =(

Before I continue, I have nothing against the man city fans, and no offense to them or whatsoever, but it's just my own personal opinion.

This guy brought over a club, and first thing he did is to spend 32.5 million on one Brazilian player who was supposed to be signing for another Blue club called chelsea and wants to buy the likes of Manchester United Cristiano Ronaldo for 135 million pounds. 135 million!!! Totally insane. That's not all. he wants to buy Arsenal's Cesec Fabergas for 50 million, Valencia's David Vila for 40 million, and his wish list just gets bigger.

I mean If every single club in the league gets bought over by some rest owners, and just splurge millions and millions of money an gives the players like 200k per week, obviously he players will just go there for the cash, he won't put in effort, and even if he does perform well, it's more of pressure to perform, rather than passion to perform.

A great example will be The record city's signing, Robinho.

Let's do some simple maths

Robinho owns 160k per week one day he's earning around 22k, and so in one year he earns around 8300k!!! That's cheap money?? I think if some rich owner buy over Arsenal some day, the first to leave will be me, followed by the manager, Arsene Wenger. I seriously feel sorry for those players who have just joined man city, players like SWP and so on, their asses are gonna get kicked , or the best case scenario is them warming up the beach week after week, putting their football talents to a complete waste.

Even inflation is happen in soccer!! What's the world coming to?? No wonder there are hungry kids dying everywhere, even if these rich owner donate 1 million to these poor kids, it's just a Show, and moreover what's is one million to them when they earn 260 billion per year?!?

It's not even a pinch to them.

I think The FA seriously got to put a cap on the rising inflation. It's totally unfair for the smaller clubs to compete in the league, might as well spend 1 billion and buy the trophy, but then again, I doubt the FA 'll do it cause they want to earn money too. I bet the man city owner has too much money to spend, why not give some to me? Fuck this shit.

Money makes people greedy. It's an undeniable fact.

You're lying if you say you don;'t care for money, I am greedy for money too, but at least not to an extent of splurging millions and millions of money for your own ambition. Come on spare a thought for the needy, the poor and the dying.

Maybe it's a sign that the end of the world is coming.

Yes yes, I might be jealous of man city now, who knows they might well get fourth this season and kick Arsenal into the UEFA cup, but at least we know how to give youngsters a chance to shine, not not foolishly spending stupid money on so called stars players, and trying to form a 22 World class XI in Eastlands, the home of Manchester City. Now I feel for their neighbours, Manchester United.

P.S : Dr Sulaiman Al-Fahim, I hope somehow, you are reading this now, and i need to emphasize, I aint Anti-Manchester Ciy, I DO have a couple of friends who supports man city too, just that, i feel like giving my own views.

The world is unfair, so live with it.

Say No to stupid inflation! Argh, Fuck it!

English Premiership English Premiership

2008-09-03T23:54:00.001+08:00

Hulloooo. I'm here to update.

Went to Sentosa for the past two days for the chalet. I'm so tired now so I guess i should blog now before I doze off.

Monday Ist September

Met louis near my house downstairs at 10.30. Walked to the old bus interchange, and waited for Wenbin, Zewei, Yu Quan and eugene. Then took bus 27 to the Gaint to buy bbq stuffs. Wa. The Gaint is super big, den went around hunting for the stuffs, after buy the stuffs, total price is around 50 plus dollars sia.

Haiz, nowadays, even food also so expensive and inflation is everywhere. Anyway, we went to Ikea next and buy the dollar hotdog bun, plus an additional 70 cents if u want the drink, the whole combo set only SG1.70. Wow, and i'm talking about inflation, huh.

We went back Sengkang buy some other stuffs, on our way to the bus stop, there came a heaver downpour. Sian ah. Then, reached Sengkang, brought the stuffs and took mrt all the way to vivo.After that took the $3 dollar monorail ride to Sentosa. Next, took the beach tram to the Resort entrance and climbed our way up, took the keys and proceeded to the "kampong hut" area, and it known as B area, Bugis. Talking about originality, lol. The chalet area is bigger than i expected, two double- decker beds, a small area for walking/doing stuffs and a damn powerful aircon, and i mean really powerful. The whole room is wade of wood, expect the aircon. It's kinda a new environment, perhaps a new experience? I've to use the communal toilet for bathing and washing up, which is near to our chalet's room. We unpacked the stuff, and slacked a while before playing mahjong, I didn't join in and just slacked at one corner first. Louis went off for cca's stuffs at around 5, and shortly after that Yew Wee came. Counited mahjon-ing and at &pm, We started the bbq. Muhahhahha, There'll always be an element of difficulty when you try to start up the fire. We slowly bbq-ed as we need to leave some food for louis, so we just bbq, slack, blast music and catched up with each other as some of us from jc, some from poly and mostly are from different poly also. Yew wee went off at around 9 plus, den louis came back at somewhat near 10, with bbq sauce and chips. bbq-ed/taled, and psp-ed all the way plus 12. We finished up bbq-ing everything at 1am. While we were slowly eating, there was a sudden blackout, make me ctcs, can't see anything sia. I suppose it's the "Lightouts" time, and it's 1.40am, some strange timing for Lights out man, cleared up the rubbish, before bathing in the toilets. Damn, the water is really super cold sia.

Then, It's Time for some Funnn, so we went to continue our mahjoing session .In the end, Yu quan was the biggest winner and wb, the biggest loser. Then we played the "asshole" version of the Big 2.5 I won quite a lot, and so in the end they ganged up to make me become the "asshole" Lmao. Lucky, no puishment for me. Anyway, time files and it was 6, so we decided to take a short nap. But yu quan started to gay with eugene while we were all trying to sleep, and den yu quan went around terrorizing Louis, me and Wb. It was damn dark without the lights on, and louis went around kicking anyone who gets near him. Ouch! I was like trapped in the middle of nowhere, and the target o all the flying punches and kicks. Poor me.. The wrestling madness finally ended at seven. Lol, I guess everyone was already exhausted by then. then the short nap turned up to be a couple of hours, with me waking up at 10 plus, and louis went off for some cca meeting again, while the rest continued sleeping. The rest woke up at around 12 plus, We went to wash up, and makan our breakfast cum lunch, and it's none other than INSTANT NOODLES, cheap, easy and quick. It's my favourite. lmao. Went back psp-ing / mahjoing a while before Yu quan went off for school stuffs. We decided to head off to the beach. Suliso beach was like just outside our chalet resort, but cause the rest said too many people so we decided to take the beach the tram to padawan beach, while on our way there, the rest changed their mind again so we finally ended up at tanjoing beach. Wa, that place is damn rural, not much people at all, mayb cause that beach is right at the end, so we chose one nce stop and settle down to suntan, but it was already 3 plus at that time, and like gonna rain soon, so there was no sun. Argh. Nvm, Gene and I decided to sleep inside the sea to relax. Wa, knn, the water damn salty and dirty, after a while my eyes turned damn red. Wa, den it started to drizzle. Haiz, so we decided to make our way back top pawadan beach again. We met up with louis at the beach tram station, and pawadan match more people, and of course eye-candies, can't sun-tan due to the cursed rain so louis, gene and I went swimming again. The water not so salty this time, and so we just relax and enjoy the scenery . I kept on kenna "sand" and water attack by gene and louis, Den we tried some under-water wresting,and i kenna ganged by both of them, then my shorts and "superman" shorts kenna pulled off, lucky, it's under water so no people can see, if not I HG. LOL. After some time, went up and run to the goalposts there and played soccer in the sand. Lmao, played until very hiong, m team lost 5-4. After that washed up and took the tram back to the chalet, want to faster bath, den rain again. Jialat sia. Rain means the water even colder. After bathing, went on a majohng spree, till around 9 before our hungry stomatch need some feeding, and that when the nightmare start.

First, we took beach tram to cafe, but the cafe food's damn expensive and so we decided to go subway. The subway, must take monorail to the another station,(after asking the sentosa staffs for direction.) And so,off we went, Reached that station, realised taht subway is located right at the top, so we need to take the elevator. Wa, den damn knn, the elevator operating hours only from 9am till 9pm, so we climbed up FOUR, not one but FOUR flight of elevator o reach the top, it was a super nice view from the top. We walked to the subway only to realise what?? THE SUBWAY is fucking closed!!! WTH. And so hungry me walked down FOUR damn flight of elevators, so TOTal is 8 freaking elevator, super pissed and tired. Koufu selling one laska 15 bucks!!!! What the fish!! It's plain nightlight robbery. And so, no food in sentosa, bo bian so took monrail back to vivo, and eat at subway. My first time eating there. Not too bad but portion a bit too small for my famished stomach. After makan-ing finish still hungry . Waled to KFC, ALSO CLOSED, walked to 7 eleven, Wt, also closed!!! It's supposed to be 24 hrs!!?! Sian, so went mac buy burger and pay another 3 bucks to take the monorail back to sentosa. It was already 10.50 by that time, so we decided to wait or the last beach tram, which is supposed to be at 11pm, as according to the notice. By at 11.55pm, some staff walked off and told us no more tram. CCBB!!!! How unlucky can this can??? Bo bian, we had to walk all the way back to our resort. On our way there, I want to buy wine, but the 7 eleven never sell, aiyo. Super super suay. Finally managed to reach the chalet, wanted to buy drinks frombut no more ICED lemon tea from the vending machine, sad case, have to settle for soya bean. Argh. Finished up the burger from mac, and went to play majoing. I play only won one round, Played halfway,den my water bottle, which was on the floor, was accidently pushed by gene, and it rolled all the way under a gap below the double decker bed. My hand too short, and it's so deep, impossible to take back my bottle, Sian, no water sia. So after a while, we all damn tired, maybe cause of the unlucky night, making me super fatigued,and so we all doze off at around 1 plus.

Today, woke up at 10. We faster washed up and packed our stuff, den we checked out, before having instant noddles for breakfast, this time i had two cups instead of one. After that went back home. I carried one whole bag of charcoal home cause haven opened, den throw away wasted sia. Besides, I having another chalet real soon so I took home lor. Dam heavy sia.. Reached home, catch up with the worldly affairs through the papers, den faster go bath and eat. Then eat and then switched on my lappy,( yes, I know you miss me,) Lol, den slacked and stoned, tired but then again, don't feel like sleeping so just rot lor.

Anyways, Thanks to all who make it for the chalet, and hope that you all had lots of fun there, just like me muhahhhahha =)

Argh, super tired, and sleepy. I kenna "love bites" from none other than mosquitoes.(quite a number of them at sentosa) Bites me everywhere. Man i'm feeling a bit feverish right now, Nooooooooo. Must get well soon cause another chalet's just coming right up. LOl. Such a long entry.

Time to kun le!!! Bye!!!

2008-08-30T15:20:00.000+08:00

*Blink* and exams are over. Three papers in four days and the semester 's officially over,unless you consider getting the semester results as part of the semester.

Anyway, I'm more of relieved than happy that the semester is over and done with, cause I know there's a damn high chance I'm gonna get below 3.0 for this semester, and if that the case, hell will start. However, one thing 'm sure of is that I've put more effort in my exams since that awful common test results that almost killed me.

I guess I just school stuffs aside, cause IT's the H-O-L-I-D-A-Y . Time to slack awhile, and then I've to look for a job, cause two chalets in two weeks 's going to leave a big,big hole in my pockets, but it's all at he expense of fun, so I guess the money is worth it.

Time to recap the week,

Monday To Thursday morning, 11am

What else but except mugging for exams,( although i admit I did slack a tiny bit though)

At 10.42am, 28 august, I officially handed in my last exam answer booklet to Dr Tie, and I managed to give a slight smile, cause the nightmares are over. accompany the peeps to dine at the North canteen, den while, Raj, Kelvin and Chin guan accompany kenny to take a cab to changi village to view and collect his car afterthe meal, Jy and edawrd took the bus home, whil me, Zhonghui and Ruth took the Mrt. Dropped off at yishun and took bus 800 to stop near zh house. Zhong hui and me then eat at the coffee shop before proceeding ti his house to slack. Zh then showed me some of his childhood photos, and damn, he made me jealous la, went to places like USA, New Zealand, Australia. Ahh, I would trade anything just to stay in the country side, enjoying the breeze and the scenery, far far away from the busy, fast-paced "Lion City"

Zh delighted me with some R21-rated uncensored stuffs right at the end of one of his photo album. ROFL!

Zh den fell asleep so I did a bit of surfing on the net and a round of dota..

Called ruth and JY around 4 to wake them up from their dreamland, or at least i knew i woke JY up from her dreamland, opps, didn't meant to.

Then woke zh up from his slumber, before we got really to go to vivo, and the train was super packed with people, and it's like there's no air-con. Damn stuffy, and so many stops, and how glad I'm to be able to take the fast/people-less/cooling/little stops North-east Line, to the city areas.It semed ages before we raeched dg interchanged ad changed to the NEL with the kiny purple seats, Lol. Then zh and I were talking about the difference between the NEL trains and the MSL train.

Reached vivo, waited for the rest, and accompany kenny for went to did a bit of shopping. Then, finally and sit in kenny rated car. Oh my, i dunno the spelling of the car, so i shouldn't disgrace myself here. Anyway, i prefer his current car to his pervious one, not just because it's black, my favorite color. I love the engine sounds, varooom, kinda exciting and also reminds me of SUV.lmao.

Went to the old harbourfront hawker centre to eat, and holy, but the food is cheap, and is of large quantity and is simply delicious, and that includes the sugar cane drink too. ahhahha. After that took kenny's car to Keppal Bay, with 7 ppl squeezed in the car, and kelvin literally "riding" on me, lolol. There was not a lot of people there, except for maybe a handful of couples making out there, geez, We went to play big 2.5, slacking enjoying the wind, and music. Went off at about 10, and took kenny car back to harbourfront mrt. This time, Zh was riding on kelvin, right on his "middle" leg, kelvin was turned on and went high, den kelvin asked zh to move and so zh's ass was supported by me right's thigh and kelvin's left one. Oh my. We just went crazy and did a feel scream, and kelvin was almost laughing all the way. Then, me and JY alighted at vivo and took NEL home. Dead tired.

Friday morning, woke up, read the papers and on my lappy, and started slacking.ahahhah. Then Louis called me only at around 12 plus and told me he in school and asked me go back sch see teachers, argh I need go suntec so can't. So sad sia. After that train-ed to City hall, walked to suntec and meet raj and the rest at the Starbucks. After that walk to IT fair look look, see see, touch touch, it's only friday and already so crowded liao, I can't imagine the crowd during weekends.

After that, took kenny car to the "lao pa sha" to makan. Kenny made another trip to fetch Ruth and her two fiends over. Then, ruth did an intro for us to her two friends.

Right after that, it's time for a food feast!!!!

We ordered 40 sticks of staty, two plates of fried rices one large bbq spicy stingray, and one sugar cane drink. Then we just eat, talk and listen to the rather"horrible music" that were quite a pain to my ears. All of them eat real little, so kelvin and I ate a lot, ate until we almost can't walk sia. BURP!! It's one of the most fulfilling meals i've ever had. Bloated stomach, them walked to the Raffles place mrt, while in the train to outram park to change to NEL, there were a lot a LOT of people, I almost can't alight at outram park, if not for some kinds souls who gave way for me to alight, if not i might well be struck in the train.

Today NUMBER ONE SHOCKING NEWS IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD is THAT MAN UTD, I must emphasize again, The European champs, Manchester United Actually L-O-S-T , LOST To Zenti, a somewhat not so significant Russian Uefa cup winners by a scoreline of 1-2. And the funny thing is i happened to tell raj last night during the dinner that man utd would lost, and it really happen. Some Luck.

Played one round of dota with kelvin and here I'm blogging.

Alright, there all so far for the week. Man, i can' wait to meet up my sec sch clique for mon's chalet at sentosa. Time for some fun in the sand, and the salty water, and especially to meet those peeps currently in JC, busy busy peeps, who are preparing for their A levels.

Btw, I've changed my blog song and man, i really love this song, maybe that 's why i keep playing it over and over again. Anyway, here are the song lyrics .

This town is colder now, I think it's sick of us
It's time to make our move, I'm shakin off the rust
I've got my heart set on anywhere but here
I'm staring down myself, counting up the years
Steady hands, just take the wheel...
And every glance is killing me
Time to make one last appeal... for the life I lead

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're 'here' not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, can u see what I see

They're tryin to come back, all my senses push
Un-tie the weight bags, I never thought I could...
Steady feet, don't fail me now
Gonna run till you can't walk
But something pulls my focus out
And I'm standing down...

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, you don't need

What u need, what u need...

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be
Oh, do u see what I see...